Dear Goddess,
Today was another busy day for me, toiling for Your pleasure. i completed all my usual daily tasks that You have assigned to me and i also made progress on the members area for Your blog. my previous email contains the details on the draft members area i built for You.
i trust that You had a lovely and pleasurable day. i greatly enjoyed the photos You tweeted, particularly the beautiful Louis shoes that You purchased today. i looked them up online and was astonished at the price of them. You are truly a privileged Goddess to spend such an extravagant amount for a single pair of shoes. i bow at Your feet in awe of You!
Now i must return to toiling at my tasks You have demanded of me before i can rest for the night.
Your humble servant,
Wednesday, 31 July 2013
"Disappearing"
Wednesday 31st July 2013 --------A quite and tweetless day on the FOXXY front. I just spent the day cleaning my house and catching up on some badly needed rest, as advised by my GP. Something personal has cropped up and i will be " disappearing" for several days while i deal with it. I hope that AG won't think that my sorry ass is dead or that i have run away. I have no doubt that come next week i will be tweeting more than ever , and for sure either making FOXXY laugh or pissing Her off. I hope AG doesn't miss me too much.
Tuesday, 30 July 2013
Truthful to my Goddess
Tuesday 30th July 2013 ----- Exchanged a couple of early morning thoughts with MISS FOXX in which She said some kind words about a personal sadness of mine. In the afternoon i sent AG a poem, which although it may have been a little crude , did make Her laugh. My Goddess is still about town having fun, which pleases me. Tomorrow She has a RT session, and reading about a newbee going to spend 3 hours with Her leaves me feeling a little jealous. In the evening AG sends me a task. My answer to the question posed is very brief. I am concerned i may have upset MISS FOXX so i later send another email explaining some thoughts of mine on dom/sub relationships. I know that i may be a little unconventional, but i am always truthful to my Goddess. Perhaps me and this scene are not suited to each other. Time will tell, but i remain totally committed.
Monday, 29 July 2013
Quiet Day
Monday 29th July 2013 ---- Spent the morning dealing with a few personal matters. Got news that a young work colleague i had represented a couple of weeks ago had won her case . I was very pleased. Exchanged a few tweets with AG and complimented Her on how well She looked in Her ballet outfit. A quiet day , with thankfully, no sign of any bitchiness on the findom front. A pleasant change.
Madly Jealous
Dear Goddess,
i am so happy to be back home, now i can return to properly focusing on Your pleasure and pleasing Superior Black Women. i am also anxious to get back to work training to be Your new assistant, that is if i am ever able to prove my self worthy of such an honor.
i was also thrilled to see You out enjoying the ballet today. You always seem to enjoy the finer things in life. i was also happy to hear that You did not sleep alone tonight. Of course i was madly jealous, but i realize that there is no chance that i would ever be so fortunate as to spend a night together with You.
It has been a long day and i am quite tired, so i am off to bed myself now. i will be looking forward to returning to Your service tomorrow.
Your humble servant,
i am so happy to be back home, now i can return to properly focusing on Your pleasure and pleasing Superior Black Women. i am also anxious to get back to work training to be Your new assistant, that is if i am ever able to prove my self worthy of such an honor.
i was also thrilled to see You out enjoying the ballet today. You always seem to enjoy the finer things in life. i was also happy to hear that You did not sleep alone tonight. Of course i was madly jealous, but i realize that there is no chance that i would ever be so fortunate as to spend a night together with You.
It has been a long day and i am quite tired, so i am off to bed myself now. i will be looking forward to returning to Your service tomorrow.
Your humble servant,
Sunday, 28 July 2013
Happy to See Her Being Happy
Sunday 28th July 2013 -------Spent a quite Sunday, tidying my house and then watching hurling, the fastest field sport in the world, on tv. Sent a few tweets to FOXXY and was happy to see Her being happy. I have a few things i need to deal with this coming week so i may not be so active on twitter. I think i have reached an ACCEPTANCE with ALMIGHTY GODDESS and i don't need to crave Her attention. It is enough for me that She knows i am there if She ever needs me.
Saturday, 27 July 2013
Good night
Dear Goddess
Sending this from phone, no internet access. Just wanted to say good night.
Your humble servant
Sending this from phone, no internet access. Just wanted to say good night.
Your humble servant
Just Another Ordinary Day
Saturday 27th July 2013 ---- Got up about 8am and prepared breakfast fr my son. Having difficulty getting him to eat these days, he just wants Jamaican food all the time. I visit the supermarket and then take my son to my friend's place, where he will stay for a couple of days while i have a little break. We travel by tube and the journey is hilarious. My son is incredibly handsome, i know every parent thinks their child is, getting his stunning looks from his Filipino mother. However, it is his desire to chat to everybody which is the centre of his appeal to people. He speaks like he is 42 rather than 2 and today he had everybody in stitches on our train journey. While he got his good looks from his mum, i have absolutely no idea where he got his long winded gift of the gab from. In the afternoon, i got a response from AG to yesterday's diary entry. I was a little surprised, but impressed by Her comments. It is refreshing to see that my much loved FOXXY does not have a closed mind. A little later She advises me that She has read the relevant parts of the ownership task that She gave me. She suggests the piece was a little long, so i guess it is fortunate that i only sent Her the abridged version ( smile ). AG states that She accepts, but when i ask if that means that i am now an owned boy, she just laughs. Does She want me to beg Her to say the words? Does She not realize that i have an alternative. There is a NVB diva on dommedose looking for unowned slaves. What a choice,, yuuuuuccckkkks, i can't even joke about it without feeling a sense of nausea. Damn it i must get a grip. I am starting to feel a little comfortable and of course that is absolute TABOO. I must restrict myself to being relaxed, not easy for a laid back boy like me. My ownership question to FOXXY was accompanied by a flash of thunder and lightening outside my window, surely a portent of things to come. Foxxy went partying with Her feisty sister that all the boys are drooling to see. Echos of Sherlock Holmes smarter brother. Could AG really have a sister who is even feistier than Her? I dozed off, before awakening about 2am and remembering to write this short entry . Ah well , just another ordinary day in the life of a FOXXY sub.
Friday, 26 July 2013
Stressful Day
Dear Goddess,
Today was a stressful day for me. i was not happy about the message i had to send You regarding my weekly reparations. i agonized for days about this, but i son't see any other realistic way to deal with this.
i also had my phone die on my today which inflicted another expense on my finances. my new phone is much better, but i would have rather not had to deal with the issue.
Last, but not least, i found out that i need to spend the next few days with my relatives. Nothing major, but it is something i have to do. i will maintain communications with You and take care of anything You need from me, but please understand i may be out of contact for a few hours at a time.
Your humble servant,
Today was a stressful day for me. i was not happy about the message i had to send You regarding my weekly reparations. i agonized for days about this, but i son't see any other realistic way to deal with this.
i also had my phone die on my today which inflicted another expense on my finances. my new phone is much better, but i would have rather not had to deal with the issue.
Last, but not least, i found out that i need to spend the next few days with my relatives. Nothing major, but it is something i have to do. i will maintain communications with You and take care of anything You need from me, but please understand i may be out of contact for a few hours at a time.
Your humble servant,
Big Trouble
Friday 26th July 2013..---- Seen early morning tweet from AG in which She advised that She would be attending Cirque Du Soleil, Alegria which is on in Wembley Arena in the evening. Out of curiosity, i watched one of their shows on Sky TV in the evening. Interesting enough, but not really my forte. It reminded me of the time i watched Swan Lake on Ice at the Royal Albert Hall. I appreciated the cultural aspect of the show but got no real buzz. In the morning i posted a reply to a comment AG had posted about me on Dommedose. It was very light hearted. Later in the afternoon i noticed a tweet from my Goddess in which she showed the amount of cash She has received since February. To have received just over 20k , tax free, may seem to some to be quite impressive. I have to admit that i was a little surprised and disappointed. I recall quite a few times , when my ex-wife exceeded that total in a single week. Admittedly she did have other people working for her as well. In the evening time i decided to read a few articles on Domme dose. Sub behaviour by Miss Conceited i found a little immature. I read rebel sub Irv O'Neil, and i have to confess that i am still looking for his special talent that everybody seems to talk about. I am probably unlucky and have just come across his uninteresting pieces up until now. I did find an article by Hex Kitten, a little interesting though. It was called Bad Mojo, and i can certainly relate to her comments about some dommes getting a little carried away with the hype they build up of their image, the promo being so good they believe it themselves, and they are shocked if not everyone else does. Before i get myself into trouble, i hasten to add that i do not include AG in that group. After all nobody can dispute that She is feisty FOXXY and works hard promoting Her image. I ended up watching a clip posted on the Dose called " a message to unowned slaves" by Miss Nicole. In my opinion, and i am only a humble sub, it was master class in being unprofessional. It reminded me of those silly instadommes shouting " i am a goddess give me money. I had just eaten my dinner before watching it , and just about managed to keep it down. If this is an example of the best that findom has to offer, then the scene really is in big trouble. I have to be honest and admit,, that for the first time since i asked to follow FOXXY, this week has seen my enthusiasm for the findom arena start to wane a little.
Thursday, 25 July 2013
Heart Attack
Dear Goddess,
Today was a good day as once again i had multiple opportunities to please Superior Black Women. One of these occasions was when i was driving into an intersection where i had the right of way, but i noticed a young black woman in a van full of children trying to cross. i stopped my vehicle and waved her through, waiting for her to get across even though the car behind me was honking because i was holding them up. i didn't care, it was just another white guy and he would have to wait while the Superior Black Woman was given priority.
i also enjoyed Your photos You tweeted today. i can't believe how You can look so drop dead beautiful while riding a bicycle with a helmet on Your head. I am glad You take proper precautions by wearing a helmet, it would be a sin if a single hair on Your lovely head were hurt.
The second photo You tweeted, thanking Your boys, nearly gave me a heart attack. You are just SO gorgeous, and it is very generous of You to share with Your boys like that. i am now back on my knees, thanking You for allowing me to remain in Your world for one more day.
Your humble servant,
Today was a good day as once again i had multiple opportunities to please Superior Black Women. One of these occasions was when i was driving into an intersection where i had the right of way, but i noticed a young black woman in a van full of children trying to cross. i stopped my vehicle and waved her through, waiting for her to get across even though the car behind me was honking because i was holding them up. i didn't care, it was just another white guy and he would have to wait while the Superior Black Woman was given priority.
i also enjoyed Your photos You tweeted today. i can't believe how You can look so drop dead beautiful while riding a bicycle with a helmet on Your head. I am glad You take proper precautions by wearing a helmet, it would be a sin if a single hair on Your lovely head were hurt.
The second photo You tweeted, thanking Your boys, nearly gave me a heart attack. You are just SO gorgeous, and it is very generous of You to share with Your boys like that. i am now back on my knees, thanking You for allowing me to remain in Your world for one more day.
Your humble servant,
Quiet Day
Thursday 25th July 2013 ----- A relatively quite day today. Sent quite a few tweets in the morning. AG reckoned too many. Had a fun afternoon with my son at his playgroup. Despite sometimes not seeing him for up to a week at a time, the bond between us grows ever stronger. I posted a blog on a dommedose piece by MizSydney, which AG seemed to like. A lot of childish petulance about today, so easy to see why so many people get pissed off. AG talks, this evening, about operating a dungeon and i wonder if all the crap floating around the findom scene at the moment , is encouraging Her to change Her emphasis. She does enjoy RT so i am sure she would be successful. I have a lot of experience in that arena, and it is just as competitive as findom, in fact probably more so.
Wednesday, 24 July 2013
Early Night
Tuesday 24th July 2013 ------A quite morning during which AG set me the task of writing Her a poem. Late morning FOXXY emailed to say that my paragraph on findom needed to be rewritten . I duly rewrote the piece. To reflect my reorganised devotion to AG i composed a poem entitled NEW BEGINNING. FOXXY seemed to like it. I made early deposit ( £ 101) in FBA. I collected my son and spent the evening playing with him. He must have really missed me as i have never been so showered with kisses before. I'm a little tired, so early night.
Your Pleasure
Dear Goddess,
Today i made up for not having pleased any Superior Black Women yesterday. i feel much better now that i had multiple opportunities to hold door and compliment lovely Black Women, receiving smiles and thanks in return.
i was amused to see derekk's response to You tweeting about floating. i am glad to hear that You did float, You really should check into scuba diving!
Today was mostly a busy day for me, but i got a lot of work done. Of course my favorite work is that which i do for Your pleasure.
Your humble servant,
Today i made up for not having pleased any Superior Black Women yesterday. i feel much better now that i had multiple opportunities to hold door and compliment lovely Black Women, receiving smiles and thanks in return.
i was amused to see derekk's response to You tweeting about floating. i am glad to hear that You did float, You really should check into scuba diving!
Today was mostly a busy day for me, but i got a lot of work done. Of course my favorite work is that which i do for Your pleasure.
Your humble servant,
Tuesday, 23 July 2013
"RESPECT MAN"
uesday 23rd July 2013 -------------- I was awakened again by heavy rain. Was pleased to receive an early morning response to yesterdays diary entry , in which ALMIGHTY GODDESS states that she too hopes that we have turned a corner in our relationship. I really do feel my admiration for FOXXY continuing to grow. As they say in Jamaica, RESPECT MAN. My gammy foot has improved quite a bit today , but i still attended my clinic for a blood test. In the afternoon i set about carrying out the task that AG has given. I am focused on this task, taking it very seriously. Having considered each question carefully, i finished writing my response. It is lengthy and i put so much energy into it that i am now feeling tired. Now all i have to do is type it up. Here i must admit that when it comes to computer skills, i am probably lacking compared to FOXXY's other boys. I am old school and haven't had a single computer lesson in my entire life. I thought myself the basics that i require for carrying out my day to day job. I got a little annoyed at work last week. I wrote what i regarded as one of the shrewdest pieces i had ever composed, and all that one idiot wanted to talk about was my less than perfect margins. Exasperating. Still if FOXXY is determined to learn to swim, then it is surely not to late for me to harness my IT skills. In the event it took me longer to type up my task than it did to write it and i am left feeling shattered. I received an email from AG, in the evening, asking if i am interested in doing an anonymous paragraph on findom for some newspaper. Naturally if AG wants me to do it then i must. It is a challenge. I have in the past, been a sub editor of a radical newspaper, been interviewed by newspapers and TV and speechified at many conferences, but i think that this is the first time that i have been confined to one measly paragraph. Hehe for a long winded old boy like me , that is not easy. In any event , i composed it and forwarded it to AG. I hope it served its purpose. I was so tired that i went to sleep, forgetting completely that i still had to compose this diary entry. It is only just now after awakening fresh and well that i have remembered. Being off work this week, i am having more time to focus on serving ALMIGHTY GODDESS and am enjoying it. I feel happy and contented. I know that i am not yet a fully fledged FOXXYITE, but one lives in hope.
i Feel Incomplete
Dear Goddess,
Today i did not get away from my house, and i feel incomplete - i did not have the opportunity to please any Superior Black Women today. i will be trying twice as hard tomorrow when i am out. I know this probably sounds silly, but i really do anticipate and enjoy pleasing Black Women. It has become part of my daily routine.
i spent most of the day working online and about the house. i hope the information i sent You about setting reader permissions for Blogger was useful. i am always anxious to perform tasks for You and i try as hard as possible to please You.
i also hope You enjoy the gifts i purchased for You today. As i mentioned in my tweet, i felt compelled to first purchase the nail paint, since it could be used on Your lovely feet. i do indeed have an intense fetish for Your feet, as well as the rest of You. Of course the nail paint could be used on Your perfect fingers as well and i can't help picturing You holding up Your middle finger as You do so often. i would dearly love to see a photo like that after You used Your new nail paint, but i know i am not worthy to make such a request.
i waited to give other boys a chance to purchase the other items, but when no one stepped up i felt compelled to purchase the Ladies Tube Top for You also. It would have been very improper to allow a FOXXYWISH demand to go unfulfilled for an excessive amount of time.
i missed You during Your absence from twitter today, but i was happy when You mentioned it was due to spending time with a real man. i love to see You enjoying Yourself. Of course i felt jealous, but i know very well that i would never be worthy of such an incredible pleasure. But i do dream...
Your humble servant,
Today i did not get away from my house, and i feel incomplete - i did not have the opportunity to please any Superior Black Women today. i will be trying twice as hard tomorrow when i am out. I know this probably sounds silly, but i really do anticipate and enjoy pleasing Black Women. It has become part of my daily routine.
i spent most of the day working online and about the house. i hope the information i sent You about setting reader permissions for Blogger was useful. i am always anxious to perform tasks for You and i try as hard as possible to please You.
i also hope You enjoy the gifts i purchased for You today. As i mentioned in my tweet, i felt compelled to first purchase the nail paint, since it could be used on Your lovely feet. i do indeed have an intense fetish for Your feet, as well as the rest of You. Of course the nail paint could be used on Your perfect fingers as well and i can't help picturing You holding up Your middle finger as You do so often. i would dearly love to see a photo like that after You used Your new nail paint, but i know i am not worthy to make such a request.
i waited to give other boys a chance to purchase the other items, but when no one stepped up i felt compelled to purchase the Ladies Tube Top for You also. It would have been very improper to allow a FOXXYWISH demand to go unfulfilled for an excessive amount of time.
i missed You during Your absence from twitter today, but i was happy when You mentioned it was due to spending time with a real man. i love to see You enjoying Yourself. Of course i felt jealous, but i know very well that i would never be worthy of such an incredible pleasure. But i do dream...
Your humble servant,
Monday, 22 July 2013
First Day Back
Monday 22nd July 2013 -------Today was my first day back after my week in exile. I roused myself at 5am and started browsing back to see if i had missed anything of interest during the week. My browsing was accompanied by thunder and lightning and monsoon rain outside my house. I noticed that AG had devoted a nice blog to Piggy and i was pleased as i knew how much he would appreciate it. I was conscious of a little uneasiness which has recently passed between AG and i , and i felt that i am just back and it is the start of a new week, it would appropriate for me to email ALMIGHTY GODDESS and ask for a new beginning between us. I tried to lay bare my feelings on the matter that was past and my aspirations on where the future might take us. I was very pleased when FOXXY accepted my proposal for a new beginning, but was dismayed to discover that AG harboured thoughts that i had some negative feelings about her. I assured Her that that emphatically was not the case, and accepted entirely the blame for Her reaching those conclusions. I promised to do a critical analyses of myself and ensure that this situation never arises again. I made a conscious decision today , to build some bridges with FOXXY's other boys and to start some rapport with them. In that regard, i think i have at least made a start and Piggy favored two of my tweets. I also managed to make FOXXY laugh a few times and she favored no less than six of my tweets. Wow i am honored. All in all, i had a really good day with ALMIGHTY GODDESS, and i do feel that we have turned a corner in our relationship. I certainly hope so, because Her happiness really does mean so much to me. Probably to a greater extent than i had imagined in the beginning. In the evening time AG set me a task. I must compose a piece on my ideas about what ownership means in the context of FinDom. It is a task i am looking forward to. I have been given two days to complete it, but all being well, i hope to both start and complete it tomorrow.
Drives me Crazy
Dear Goddess,
i was out and about for most of today, but i tried to keep up with Your twitter as well as i could. It is always exciting to see what is going on in Your world.
Fortunately, while i was out i managed to serve a few Superior Black Women, which always makes my day seem complete. i am amazed at how the Black Women i've pleased before greet me so nicely, that always cheers me up. Then, after i compliment or help them again i feel even better.
After i returned home and saw that You had said good night i went back and watched some of Your YouTube videos, as well as the one You made for me after i completed Your Black Female Supremacy class. It always drives me crazy watching the part of that video where You tell me that i will never be worthy of You. Then You provide the perfect ending by telling me to 'get to work'.
i hope You had a lovely evening and that things went well with Your parents.
i was out and about for most of today, but i tried to keep up with Your twitter as well as i could. It is always exciting to see what is going on in Your world.
Fortunately, while i was out i managed to serve a few Superior Black Women, which always makes my day seem complete. i am amazed at how the Black Women i've pleased before greet me so nicely, that always cheers me up. Then, after i compliment or help them again i feel even better.
After i returned home and saw that You had said good night i went back and watched some of Your YouTube videos, as well as the one You made for me after i completed Your Black Female Supremacy class. It always drives me crazy watching the part of that video where You tell me that i will never be worthy of You. Then You provide the perfect ending by telling me to 'get to work'.
i hope You had a lovely evening and that things went well with Your parents.
Sunday, 21 July 2013
Journal Entry 3
It seems some uncontrolled, dark, powerful force is constantly preventing me from convincing Miss Foxx I might be worth being owned.
Last week, on Wednesday, our head office informed me I had to fly to a relatively distant destination immediately, in order to attend important meetings. I can't elaborate here because this is a sensitive, confidential matter. Yet the result is I was unable to even be online for the past 4 days, let alone being blessed with an opportunity to report to Miss Foxx or write a journal entry. I hope Goddess will both believe me when I say I was unable to communicate with Her and understand my situation.
Tonight, I watched Miss Foxx last clip on Her blog entry and once again found myself speechless, amazed at Her maestria, charisma and charm. Her voice, Her ability to captivate any audience with Her words, eyes, aritocratic manners is something I had never experienced before in this realm.
Moreover, hearing about the dedication, loyalty and committment of Her slaves and applicant slaves is making me realize how far I am to make a point here. So far, I have nor proven Miss Foxx I deserved Her attention, training and recognition. Far from there. That thought makes me sad and even, right now, depressed to a certain extent.
Last week, on Wednesday, our head office informed me I had to fly to a relatively distant destination immediately, in order to attend important meetings. I can't elaborate here because this is a sensitive, confidential matter. Yet the result is I was unable to even be online for the past 4 days, let alone being blessed with an opportunity to report to Miss Foxx or write a journal entry. I hope Goddess will both believe me when I say I was unable to communicate with Her and understand my situation.
Tonight, I watched Miss Foxx last clip on Her blog entry and once again found myself speechless, amazed at Her maestria, charisma and charm. Her voice, Her ability to captivate any audience with Her words, eyes, aritocratic manners is something I had never experienced before in this realm.
Moreover, hearing about the dedication, loyalty and committment of Her slaves and applicant slaves is making me realize how far I am to make a point here. So far, I have nor proven Miss Foxx I deserved Her attention, training and recognition. Far from there. That thought makes me sad and even, right now, depressed to a certain extent.
Last Day of Exile
Sunday 21st July 2013 ------- Got home from work about 8am. Off now for three weeks, so chance to have a rest. Between my primary job, my trade union activities, some club work, some research and writing, my FOXXY involvement and the responsibilities of being a single parent, my batteries have become a little run down. FOXXY would probably say it is because i am an OLD boy, but i would say that i am much fitter and more energetic than most of the youngsters i see running around these days. I had a pretty quite day, watching some golf and Irish sport on TV, as well as catching up on some household chores. This is my last day of exile from the FOXXY website. In the morning i will have a little browse back, and see if i have missed anything of interest in the past week.. I am conscious of the email exchange that we had on Friday. Although, i believe that it cleared the air a bit between us and made some things at least a little more transparent, it would seem that there are still certain nuances that we still don't seem to understand about each other. In particular , i am aware that AG feels that i either don't understand the meaning of, or am lacking TACT. I will try a new approach , when addressing that problem tomorrow. My big challenge for this week is going to be my thesis on the FinDom scene. It is , however, a challenge that i am very much looking forward to. Tomorrow i must also visit my doctor again. The medication i have been taking, has brought about only a marginal improvement in my foot, and i shall probably have to have a blood test. No doubt my sample will show up as being intoxicated by FOXXYNESS.
i Can't Believe That You Mentioned me
Dear Goddess,
i sincerely hope that You had a fabulous time today and i hope Your boy enjoyed a good thrashing by You. i am very, very jealous, but i'm not sure i could endure what You would dish out.
i spent a large portion of my day visiting with relatives, and i did not have many opportunities to compliment or assist Superior Black Women. i always feel disappointed when this happens, i seem to have developed a need to please Black Women on a daily basis.
i was quite excited when i saw that You posted a video about Your three little boys. i can't believe that You mentioned me in one of Your YouTube videos! i was also quite touched that You said such nice things about me. Now i am motivated to work even harder for Your pleasure. Seeing You pleased with my efforts to serve You is all the reward i could ask for.
Looking forward to seeing You on twitter tomorrow...
Your humble servant,
i sincerely hope that You had a fabulous time today and i hope Your boy enjoyed a good thrashing by You. i am very, very jealous, but i'm not sure i could endure what You would dish out.
i spent a large portion of my day visiting with relatives, and i did not have many opportunities to compliment or assist Superior Black Women. i always feel disappointed when this happens, i seem to have developed a need to please Black Women on a daily basis.
i was quite excited when i saw that You posted a video about Your three little boys. i can't believe that You mentioned me in one of Your YouTube videos! i was also quite touched that You said such nice things about me. Now i am motivated to work even harder for Your pleasure. Seeing You pleased with my efforts to serve You is all the reward i could ask for.
Looking forward to seeing You on twitter tomorrow...
Your humble servant,
Saturday, 20 July 2013
FinDom Scene
Saturday 20th July 2013 ---- Got home from work just after 7am, gammy foot throbbing despite the steroids. Slept until noon, then got a few necessities in supermarket and went to my club, first visit in quite a while, where i enjoyed a couple of lunchtime pints of guinness with some compatriots of mine. Have no idea what FOXXY is up to for Her weekend, but am confident that She is enjoying Herself as usual, and am happy in the knowledge that She knows that if She is having any problems, i am there if ever needed. After returning home from the club, i had another nap and then spent a leisurely evening watching my favorite sport, golf, on tv. Shortly after 9pm i head off to work for my last shift before starting 3 weeks of annual leave. I get 10 weeks leave per annum. It has been hectic night at my station tonight, with a lot of boisterous people on their way to various night clubs. My station is now closed and i have just completed my weekly safety checks. Tomorrow is my last day of exile from the FOXXY website , then i will be back to being a pain in Her glorious ass again. Just kidding AG. I am looking forward to completing my lengthy analyses of various aspects of the FinDom scene.
Friday, 19 July 2013
Understand Each Other a Little Better
Friday 19th July 2013 ---- Got home from work about 0715, my foot still throbbing. Had a few hours sleep , before heading off to FBA to deposit £130 , which saw me pass the £1000 mark. I sent an email to AG to advise Her. This email contained some comment about my brain and my body. I can only assume that Foxxy and others interpreted my words as a joke as they laughed at them. Of course everything i had said about my brain and body was true and i found the laughing quite insulting. Bloody cheek. In the evening, i sent a frank email to AG about recent exchanges between us, and got an understanding response, which although it was what i had expected, i had not been certain of. I think as time goes by, that ALMIGHTY GODDESS and i are getting to understand each other a little better.
Toiling Very Hard
Dear Goddess,
i am actually composing this diary entry very early Saturday morning (about 1AM my time). i was out late Friday night and when i got home i went to work searching for more potential venues for Your London Domme Outing. i am toiling very hard on this because i want to see You and Your friends have a lovely time together. i only wish i could be there to serve You all in person!
While i was out today i was fortunate enough to have the opportunity to please some Superior Black Women. i was able to hold a door for one elderly black woman and i complimented a black store clerk on her lovely earings. i actually find that i am disappointed if a day goes by where i am not able to please a Superior Black Woman.
Needless to say, i am quite tired, so i'll be heading off to sleep now. i can see from Your tweets that You are already up and starting the new day. i will back in contact with You tomorrow after i whip myself for Your pleasure and offer You my reparations.
Your humble servant,
i am actually composing this diary entry very early Saturday morning (about 1AM my time). i was out late Friday night and when i got home i went to work searching for more potential venues for Your London Domme Outing. i am toiling very hard on this because i want to see You and Your friends have a lovely time together. i only wish i could be there to serve You all in person!
While i was out today i was fortunate enough to have the opportunity to please some Superior Black Women. i was able to hold a door for one elderly black woman and i complimented a black store clerk on her lovely earings. i actually find that i am disappointed if a day goes by where i am not able to please a Superior Black Woman.
Needless to say, i am quite tired, so i'll be heading off to sleep now. i can see from Your tweets that You are already up and starting the new day. i will back in contact with You tomorrow after i whip myself for Your pleasure and offer You my reparations.
Your humble servant,
Thursday, 18 July 2013
Saddened
Thursday 18th July 2013 -- Arrived home just after 7 am and was saddened to find that my much loved fish Darkie was floating dead in his tank. I called him Darkie because he was a breed of Blackmoor, jet black in colour. After i had him about 6 months, he became ill and rather strangely his colour changed completely to gold. I have now had him about 3 years, and unlike my other fish, he would literally come and eat his food from my fingers. I wrapped him and gave him a dignified burial in my garden. I shall miss him. In the afternoon i went to see my doctor, who prescribed some steroids for my foot. I am not keen on them , but will have to give them a try. If they don't work, i shall have to go for some blood tests. FOXXY contacts me in the evening and challenges me to carry on with my claim that Her tasks are boring. I am feeling subdued this evening and in no mood for quarreling , so our exchange is affable. I ask for clarity on a point, which is resolved and i head for my night shift.
Yet Another Busy Day
Dear Goddess,
Yet another busy day of completing my tasks for Your pleasure. i was out and about a bit in the middle of the day and i kept a sharp eye out for opportunities to serve Superior Black Women. i held doors, carried items and complimented as quickly as i could, working to make up for the days that i did not have an opportunity to serve.
Of course i also worked hard on Your London Domme outing. i sent You today's progress in my previous email.
And i am giving a lot of thought about how i can meet Your demand that i increase my weekly reparations. Not that i would try to sell organs, but i have actually already donated the one spare kidney i had, so that is not an option. i know it is none of Your concern, but i am still struggling to catch up on the bills i have neglected so that i could provide for Your pleasure. Regardless, i understand the need to pamper You, so i will try as hard as i can to see what i can do.
Your humble servant,
Yet another busy day of completing my tasks for Your pleasure. i was out and about a bit in the middle of the day and i kept a sharp eye out for opportunities to serve Superior Black Women. i held doors, carried items and complimented as quickly as i could, working to make up for the days that i did not have an opportunity to serve.
Of course i also worked hard on Your London Domme outing. i sent You today's progress in my previous email.
And i am giving a lot of thought about how i can meet Your demand that i increase my weekly reparations. Not that i would try to sell organs, but i have actually already donated the one spare kidney i had, so that is not an option. i know it is none of Your concern, but i am still struggling to catch up on the bills i have neglected so that i could provide for Your pleasure. Regardless, i understand the need to pamper You, so i will try as hard as i can to see what i can do.
Your humble servant,
Wednesday, 17 July 2013
Make This Quick....
Dear Goddess,
i am going to have to make this quick as it is getting late & i need to get up early tomorrow. i had an uneventful day, but i did make some progress on Your London Domme Outing (which is why i'm up so late). i sent that information in my previous email.
i hope You are felling well and that Your voice has returned. i have scheduled Your Niteflirt tweets to begin on Thursday at 4:30 PM, GMT.
Your humble servant,
i am going to have to make this quick as it is getting late & i need to get up early tomorrow. i had an uneventful day, but i did make some progress on Your London Domme Outing (which is why i'm up so late). i sent that information in my previous email.
i hope You are felling well and that Your voice has returned. i have scheduled Your Niteflirt tweets to begin on Thursday at 4:30 PM, GMT.
Your humble servant,
I May Well Be a Bitch, But i Am Not Bitchy
Wednesday 17th July 2013 ---Had quite day, slept well. In early evening i wrote the first bit of a piece i am composing on the FinDom scene. I was then surprised to receive an email from AG in which She talked about setting me a new task I probably shouldn't have replied, but chose to do so. In my response i stated, quite honestly that i had found the tasks given to me up until now, a little boring. I was rather demeaningly called an asshole and accused of sarcasm. That is a charge i vehemently deny. The mere fact of being submissive, may in itself detract from being afforded any respect by others, it will not of itself detract from my own self respect. That is something i am not prepared to sacrifice for ANY REASON, as it is the essence of my existence and i would be useless to anyone without it. I fear that spending so much time dealing with the bitchiness of Her trade, may have led to AG looking for hidden meanings where they do not exist. I may well be a bitch, but i am not bitchy. Fortunately, i have a thick skin.
Tuesday, 16 July 2013
Toiling for Your Pleasure
Dear Goddess,
Once again i did not leave my home today, so i did not have any opportunities to please any Superior Black Women. i will need to make up for this shortcoming tomorrow.
i spent a good deal of today working on tasks for Your pleasure, both as your boy Under Consideration as well as my training as Your new Assistant. i just sent You an email with the results of my initial work on organizing Your London Domme Outing. i will continue working on this task tomorrow.
i am off to bed now, but i will be up early tomorrow to get back to toiling for Your pleasure.
Your humble servant,
Once again i did not leave my home today, so i did not have any opportunities to please any Superior Black Women. i will need to make up for this shortcoming tomorrow.
i spent a good deal of today working on tasks for Your pleasure, both as your boy Under Consideration as well as my training as Your new Assistant. i just sent You an email with the results of my initial work on organizing Your London Domme Outing. i will continue working on this task tomorrow.
i am off to bed now, but i will be up early tomorrow to get back to toiling for Your pleasure.
Your humble servant,
Grateful Little Puppy
Tuesday 16th July 2013 ---Received an early morning call from a senior representative of my trade union. He wanted to know what was my decision on wether or not to withdraw the controversial email that i circulated yesterday. He assured me of head office support either way. I advised him that i had no intention of withdrawing my email. For starters there is no point, everybody who matters has already seen it. Secondly, i have been extremely shrewd and meticulous in drafting my correspondence and i am satisfied it doesn't break any rules and meets the REASONABLENESS criteria required by any Employment Tribunal hearing. I am satisfied that one of the managers in my area is a bully, and worse i believe him to be a sexual predator. I cannot prove the latter, as people are to scared to make a statement. I have outlined the reasons why staff should not attend a meeting with ANY of our managers without a witness or a representative present. I had to state any manager so as not to leave myself open to a charge of victimization by the predator. The threat has been made, when i reach work, in just over an hour from now, there is a possibility that i may be suspended from duty. The ball is in their court. I am prepared for whatever happens, as i keep telling doubting FOXXY i have always had big balls. Hehe almost as big as FOXXY's. In the afternoon i took my son to my friend ( childminder). In the early evening i looked on domme dose, first time in a while, and was surprised to see a FOXXY article. I posted a comment and later on had a FOXXY email giving me a pat on the head. I felt such a grateful little puppy. I was annoyed with myself, however, as i had spotted a spelling mistake in my post. Darn it i hit a wrong key. AG said it was nice to see me taking an interest in the FinDom scene. My only interest is that the knowledge i acquire, may prepare me better to serve the interests of MISS FOXX. Two days into my absence from the FOXXY website and am starting to suffer withdrawal symptoms. Not a problem though, dealing with withdrawal symptoms is another one of my areas of expertise.
Monday, 15 July 2013
Journal Entry 2
After a long, complicated day at work, I just spent a few hours surfing Miss Foxx websites, reading Her every word, watching again all Her available clips. There are so many things about Her that make Her the unique, extraordinary Person and Domme She is, it is sometimes difficult for me to even picture Her, as a whole.
I'm not sure if what I just wrote makes any sense. What I mean is: sometimes I manage to fully concentrate on Her voice, which reaches so deep in my brain that I hear it at night, half asleep. Sometimes I manage to focus on Her eyes. Sometimes on Her perfectly shaped legs, etc. Yet for some reason, I do not seem to be able to consider, contemplate, even see Goddess entirely, every aspect of Her. It's like She has and is to much for a lower form of life such as I to comprehend. Her reality is to complex for a simple mind.
I hope with time this will change and I can progressively get a better understanding of all Miss Foxx is about. I will learn.
It's funny, Goddess Foxx must be 20 years younger than I am, or almost, yet when I hear Her voice, I swear I feel like I am 10 years old and She's the adult I look up to.
This is an obvious fact, every true sub knows it: a few human beings were born more mature, intelligent, charismatic than the mass. Some were born to rule, think, make decisions. Others were born to crawl, obey, serve. At the end of the day, it's as simple as that.
I'm not sure if what I just wrote makes any sense. What I mean is: sometimes I manage to fully concentrate on Her voice, which reaches so deep in my brain that I hear it at night, half asleep. Sometimes I manage to focus on Her eyes. Sometimes on Her perfectly shaped legs, etc. Yet for some reason, I do not seem to be able to consider, contemplate, even see Goddess entirely, every aspect of Her. It's like She has and is to much for a lower form of life such as I to comprehend. Her reality is to complex for a simple mind.
I hope with time this will change and I can progressively get a better understanding of all Miss Foxx is about. I will learn.
It's funny, Goddess Foxx must be 20 years younger than I am, or almost, yet when I hear Her voice, I swear I feel like I am 10 years old and She's the adult I look up to.
This is an obvious fact, every true sub knows it: a few human beings were born more mature, intelligent, charismatic than the mass. Some were born to rule, think, make decisions. Others were born to crawl, obey, serve. At the end of the day, it's as simple as that.
"Holding my Sandwich"
Dear Goddess,
It is so nice to see all Your wonderful tweets again, i missed You so much. It sounds like You had a wonderful time, but i am so sorry to hear that You now have a sore throat. i sincerely hope that You fell well again very soon.
As You know, i was visiting Philadelphia again today. It was a long day, but i had a very good time. As i hoped, i met many beautiful Superior Black Women and i was fortunate to be able to assist and compliment many of them. i held lots of doors and was constantly on the lookout for hairstyles, jewelry and clothing to compliment.
i also was able to visit the bookstore with the Black Studies section again. This bookstore is inside the Reading Terminal Market, which is an historical market located beneath the old Reading Railroad terminal. While i was at the market i also stopped by a Cajun restaurant called Beck's where i hoped to enjoy a Muffaletta sandwich. Unfortunately, they were sold out, but they told me i might be able to get one at their other location, in Philadelphia's 30th Street railroad station. i called there and was thrilled when the lady that answered the phone told me she would hold one for me.
When i arrived at the 30th Street Station Beck's i was quite excited when i found out that the sweet lady i had spoken with was a young, Superior Black Woman. i was a bit disappointed when the white boy working with her rung up my purchase and i insisted on giving the young lady a large tip for 'holding my sandwich'. The white boy seemed to be pissed that he received no tip, but i was rewarded with a lovely, appreciative smile form the Superior Black Woman i was intent on pleasing.
When i returned home i posted my response to theformercat's posting regarding Ownership ( i sent You a copy of my response in a separate email). It seemed quite an appropriate topic since i have been begging You to take ownership of me. i do understand that i have no reason to have any expectation that i will ever be worthy of such an honor, but i will continue to beg, plead and toil as long as i remain Under Consideration.
Your humble servant,
It is so nice to see all Your wonderful tweets again, i missed You so much. It sounds like You had a wonderful time, but i am so sorry to hear that You now have a sore throat. i sincerely hope that You fell well again very soon.
As You know, i was visiting Philadelphia again today. It was a long day, but i had a very good time. As i hoped, i met many beautiful Superior Black Women and i was fortunate to be able to assist and compliment many of them. i held lots of doors and was constantly on the lookout for hairstyles, jewelry and clothing to compliment.
i also was able to visit the bookstore with the Black Studies section again. This bookstore is inside the Reading Terminal Market, which is an historical market located beneath the old Reading Railroad terminal. While i was at the market i also stopped by a Cajun restaurant called Beck's where i hoped to enjoy a Muffaletta sandwich. Unfortunately, they were sold out, but they told me i might be able to get one at their other location, in Philadelphia's 30th Street railroad station. i called there and was thrilled when the lady that answered the phone told me she would hold one for me.
When i arrived at the 30th Street Station Beck's i was quite excited when i found out that the sweet lady i had spoken with was a young, Superior Black Woman. i was a bit disappointed when the white boy working with her rung up my purchase and i insisted on giving the young lady a large tip for 'holding my sandwich'. The white boy seemed to be pissed that he received no tip, but i was rewarded with a lovely, appreciative smile form the Superior Black Woman i was intent on pleasing.
When i returned home i posted my response to theformercat's posting regarding Ownership ( i sent You a copy of my response in a separate email). It seemed quite an appropriate topic since i have been begging You to take ownership of me. i do understand that i have no reason to have any expectation that i will ever be worthy of such an honor, but i will continue to beg, plead and toil as long as i remain Under Consideration.
Your humble servant,
Exile
Monday 15th July 2013 -- The start of my week in exile from the FOXXY blog has been interesting. Although off work today, i needed to draft something important to guide the members of my trade union whom i have been elected to represent. It needed to be the focus of my attention so i didn't have too much time to pine for my much loved AG. During the day i had an email saying FOXXY had managed to read up on my diary entries for past few days. In early evening i circulated a workplace email which caused quite a stir. I received a call from my area manager saying he was advising me , as my friend( hehe what a joke) to withdraw my email. He is worried about the consequences for me if i don't. Foxxy should be more concerned, as i might lose my job and be unable to tribute. However, i like to think AG knows me well enough by now to figure out my likely course of action. There is an allegation of abuse of the company internal communications system. I had being very meticulous in the wording of my email and given serious consideration to the possible implications. THIS BOY IS NOT FOR TURNING. Being exiled from the FOXXY blog and starting night shift tomorrow, will give me a bit of free time and i intend to write a lengthy and comprehensive review of the FinDom scene. The only little wrench of my exile, is that in my head i regarded myself as a self appointed little guard dog for FOXXY and its difficult to fill that role in a vacuum .
Sunday, 14 July 2013
Journal entry 1
This morning I came back from a short trip to Singapore, a trip that was totally unexpected 4 days ago. This happens a lot in my job. I'm following several countries and urgent situations often lead me to fly at short, sometimes very short notice.
On my way back, I reflected on my recent interaction with Miss Foxx, the Goddess I have been repeatedly begging to allow me to crawl to any available spot within Her pig sty. While doing so, I realized what a pathetic wannabe slave Goddess probably thinks I am. One day begging on my knees, crying like a little girl in the hope She will bless me with another opportunity to prove myself, the other day disappearing without any explanation.
What must Goddess think of me? I couldn't get rid of that thought as my plane landed this morning and I reached home hastily in the hope Miss Foxx would still be online when I log in so I can tell Her how sorry I am, how determined to work hard to show Her I can, indeed, be a decent addition to Her already crowded kennel.
But Miss Foxx was gone, of course. It's late in Europe and ... why would She care? I am nothing, She is everything. I need Her, She doesn't, will never need me. She is Beauty, Intelligence, Charisma. I'm beyond pathetic. Period. She was born to rule, I was born to obey Her.
So here I am, writing these lines while surfing Her website, reading Her comments, staring at Her perfect pictures. And most of all coming to terms, at last, with the obvious: Goddess is the One. The Owner I've been seeking for many, many years. A Superior being with the ability to effectively take over my life and control every aspect of it, screw my mind, brainwash, mold, break, humiliate and transform me into whatever freak She want me to be. That is it. I will be whatever Goddess wants me to be. This is not for me to decide.
On my way back, I reflected on my recent interaction with Miss Foxx, the Goddess I have been repeatedly begging to allow me to crawl to any available spot within Her pig sty. While doing so, I realized what a pathetic wannabe slave Goddess probably thinks I am. One day begging on my knees, crying like a little girl in the hope She will bless me with another opportunity to prove myself, the other day disappearing without any explanation.
What must Goddess think of me? I couldn't get rid of that thought as my plane landed this morning and I reached home hastily in the hope Miss Foxx would still be online when I log in so I can tell Her how sorry I am, how determined to work hard to show Her I can, indeed, be a decent addition to Her already crowded kennel.
But Miss Foxx was gone, of course. It's late in Europe and ... why would She care? I am nothing, She is everything. I need Her, She doesn't, will never need me. She is Beauty, Intelligence, Charisma. I'm beyond pathetic. Period. She was born to rule, I was born to obey Her.
So here I am, writing these lines while surfing Her website, reading Her comments, staring at Her perfect pictures. And most of all coming to terms, at last, with the obvious: Goddess is the One. The Owner I've been seeking for many, many years. A Superior being with the ability to effectively take over my life and control every aspect of it, screw my mind, brainwash, mold, break, humiliate and transform me into whatever freak She want me to be. That is it. I will be whatever Goddess wants me to be. This is not for me to decide.
Mixed Feelings
Sunday 14th July 2013 ---Exchanged a couple of early morning tweets, these will be the last for a week. I am happy to end the week on more favorable terms with AG after one or two little hiccups during the week. I have mixed feelings about the week ahead. I will miss the FOXXY exchanges , but on the other hand it will teach me a lot about myself. I have already learned a lot in the seven weeks since i came to this scene, or rather since i came to FOXXY as i never have or never will be interested in any other FinDom. I have survived a lot of things in my life because of being aware of peoples character, habits and moods. My little son had being curious about AG having seen me on Her blog so often. Just now i got him to say " goodbye Aunty FOXXY" as i logged off for the last time for a week. Ah well, in the words of the song, this is adios but not goodbye.
Weekend of Slavery
Dear Goddess,
i hope You enjoyed the third day of the festival as much as the first two. i have missed You during Your absence, but it is much more important that You enjoyed Yourself.
i spent a good portion of today working in my yard, sweating from the heat. i couldn't help but remember my weekend of slavery for You as i toiled in my garden. However, although i worked quite hard today, i was not able to come close to pushing myself as hard as You did. It was not easy to complete Your Black Female Supremacy class, but i am very glad that i did. i am now on my knees thanking You again for providing such an excellent education to an inferior white boy such as myself.
i did leave my house for a while later in the day and was fortunate enough to have some opportunities to please Superior Black Women. At a drugstore i shopped in i saw an attractive, young black female following behind me as i got into the checkout line. i motioned for her to get in front of me in line and i marveled at the awesome circular Mohawk hair style she sported. The sides of her head were shaved nearly bald, with just a short, stylish amount of black hair showing. On top of her head was a lovely, curly, reddish-pink explosion of hair that was hypnotic in effect. i couldn't help but compliment her on her beautiful hair style and she smiled and thanked me for both the compliment and for letting her up in line.
Looking forward to Your return tomorrow.
i hope You enjoyed the third day of the festival as much as the first two. i have missed You during Your absence, but it is much more important that You enjoyed Yourself.
i spent a good portion of today working in my yard, sweating from the heat. i couldn't help but remember my weekend of slavery for You as i toiled in my garden. However, although i worked quite hard today, i was not able to come close to pushing myself as hard as You did. It was not easy to complete Your Black Female Supremacy class, but i am very glad that i did. i am now on my knees thanking You again for providing such an excellent education to an inferior white boy such as myself.
i did leave my house for a while later in the day and was fortunate enough to have some opportunities to please Superior Black Women. At a drugstore i shopped in i saw an attractive, young black female following behind me as i got into the checkout line. i motioned for her to get in front of me in line and i marveled at the awesome circular Mohawk hair style she sported. The sides of her head were shaved nearly bald, with just a short, stylish amount of black hair showing. On top of her head was a lovely, curly, reddish-pink explosion of hair that was hypnotic in effect. i couldn't help but compliment her on her beautiful hair style and she smiled and thanked me for both the compliment and for letting her up in line.
Looking forward to Your return tomorrow.
Saturday, 13 July 2013
Third Whipping
Dear Goddess,
i hope that You enjoyed Your second day at the festival as much as Your first. And i hope You enjoy Your third day even more. i really enjoyed the videos from the festival that You posted.
As usual lately, i had a fairly busy day, but i accomplished a lot. i took care of my scheduled tweet duties and clicked on all Your banners as i do everyday. i also complimented the Superior Black Women i was fortunate enough to encounter as well as doing all the other daily tasks You have assigned me.
Of course i also subjected myself to my third weekly whipping, followed by submitting my weekly reparations. You may not have thought about me today, but i was certainly thinking about You a lot. i felt the stinging on my back for some time after my whipping and every time i did i thought about You enjoying Yourself at the festival, just as my Goddess should.
Your humble servant,
i hope that You enjoyed Your second day at the festival as much as Your first. And i hope You enjoy Your third day even more. i really enjoyed the videos from the festival that You posted.
As usual lately, i had a fairly busy day, but i accomplished a lot. i took care of my scheduled tweet duties and clicked on all Your banners as i do everyday. i also complimented the Superior Black Women i was fortunate enough to encounter as well as doing all the other daily tasks You have assigned me.
Of course i also subjected myself to my third weekly whipping, followed by submitting my weekly reparations. You may not have thought about me today, but i was certainly thinking about You a lot. i felt the stinging on my back for some time after my whipping and every time i did i thought about You enjoying Yourself at the festival, just as my Goddess should.
Your humble servant,
When FOXXY Looks at Her Subs
Saturday 13th July 2013 --- Had an affable exchange of tweets with FOXXY in morning, which was nice and helped me take my mind off my foot which aches. In the evening i am tweeted a quote from a FOXXY boy " thinking of Foxxy always makes me feel better. " Most of the evening i have had a different quote in my head " Love is the soul of genius " circa Amadeus Mozart. Am pleased AG is having a funky cool weekend, have had a few of them in my time. Just over 25 hours until my abdication from the FOXXY blog, almost like going into a vacuum for a week. Am feeling frustrated by an internal burst of energy waiting to explode. I have one thing in common with AG this year. Both of us want to take a big step. Foxxy wants to be able to pack in Her day job and concentrate totally on FinDom. I want to take an early retirement and concentrate on writing a novel. I have received some information from senior management contacts that something may be brewing in November. I really believe that most people in their lifetime, while they reach periods of satisfaction and high elation, are always looking for that little something extra that seems to be just at least a fraction out of reach. I am pleased that, although nowadays i sometimes don't see my son for up to a week, it hasn't weakened the bond between us, rather we grow closer all the time. I sometimes wonder if when FOXXY looks at Her subs She sees the same adoration that i see every time i look into my boy's eyes.
Friday, 12 July 2013
Missed You
Dear Goddess,
i really missed You today, but all that truly matters is that You had a good time and enjoyed Yourself. i certainly hope the next two days of the festival are just as much fun for You.
Today was yet another busy day for me, but i did manage to complete all Your daily tasks that i am responsible for, both as Your boy Under Consideration as well as Your assistant in trial. i will be so thrilled if i ever satisfy Your requirements for either one of these roles, but i realize that i may never be worthy of such an honor. But regardless, i will continue to work as hard as i possibly can in the hope that i may please You.
It is getting quite late here, almost 1AM, so i am going off to sleep now as i can barely stay awake any longer.
Your humble servant,
i really missed You today, but all that truly matters is that You had a good time and enjoyed Yourself. i certainly hope the next two days of the festival are just as much fun for You.
Today was yet another busy day for me, but i did manage to complete all Your daily tasks that i am responsible for, both as Your boy Under Consideration as well as Your assistant in trial. i will be so thrilled if i ever satisfy Your requirements for either one of these roles, but i realize that i may never be worthy of such an honor. But regardless, i will continue to work as hard as i possibly can in the hope that i may please You.
It is getting quite late here, almost 1AM, so i am going off to sleep now as i can barely stay awake any longer.
Your humble servant,
Questions
Friday 12th July 2013 -- Exchanged a couple of early morning tweets. Late morning went to FBA. I forwarded a tweet to AG to advise of my deposit. The tweet made a light hearted comment regarding Her tweets yesterday, when She mixed Her days up. AG interpreted this tweet as a moan on my part and it irritated Her . I am genuinely sorry about that, it was only intended as a bit of banter and i hadn't imagined it being taken otherwise, i guess i am losing my touch. In any case ,tweet traffic between AG and i should be quite for awhile. Over the weekend , MISS FOXX is attending the Wireless music festival in Stratford, and i am spending some quality time with my son, and then next week i embark on my self imposed tweet exile. I think that should answer some questions.
Thursday, 11 July 2013
Busy Day
Dear Goddess,
As i tweeted earlier, i truly hope You have a blast at the festival this weekend. A perfect Goddess such as Yourself deserves to relax and enjoy Herself while Her boys continue to worship and toil for Her.
i had another busy day today, taking care of a few of my own issues as well as attending to my growing list of daily tasks i address for You. This includes those that You assigned me as You took me Under Consideration as well as those i've taken responsibility for as i undergo my trial as Your new assistant such as Your scheduled tweets and clicking on all Your banners. i also worked on Your new tariffs this morning as well as searched for shoes for Your US Wishlist. You seem to be taking over more and more of my daily life, and i am certainly not complaining. i consider it an honor to be allowed to do these chores for You.
Of course i also spent time complimenting the Superior Black Women i was fortunate enough to encounter today. i truly find it hard to believe sometimes just how second nature it is becoming for me to constantly be on the lookout for opportunities to please Black Women.
And thank You so much for Your lovely tweet about how well i am doing on my trial as Your new assistant. i really am working as hard as i possibly can to learn everything there is to know about being Your dutiful assistant. i know i am not worthy, but i desperately hope that i pass the trial and that You will allow me to become Your new assistant.
As i tweeted earlier, i truly hope You have a blast at the festival this weekend. A perfect Goddess such as Yourself deserves to relax and enjoy Herself while Her boys continue to worship and toil for Her.
i had another busy day today, taking care of a few of my own issues as well as attending to my growing list of daily tasks i address for You. This includes those that You assigned me as You took me Under Consideration as well as those i've taken responsibility for as i undergo my trial as Your new assistant such as Your scheduled tweets and clicking on all Your banners. i also worked on Your new tariffs this morning as well as searched for shoes for Your US Wishlist. You seem to be taking over more and more of my daily life, and i am certainly not complaining. i consider it an honor to be allowed to do these chores for You.
Of course i also spent time complimenting the Superior Black Women i was fortunate enough to encounter today. i truly find it hard to believe sometimes just how second nature it is becoming for me to constantly be on the lookout for opportunities to please Black Women.
And thank You so much for Your lovely tweet about how well i am doing on my trial as Your new assistant. i really am working as hard as i possibly can to learn everything there is to know about being Your dutiful assistant. i know i am not worthy, but i desperately hope that i pass the trial and that You will allow me to become Your new assistant.
Battles Ahead
Thursday 11th July 2013 --- Awakened early full of enthusiasm for the battles ahead. During the night i had a dream about a book i can easily write " The uphill battle against FOXXY addiction". The tasks facing me today are not easy, but i really am so good at what i do , and as i have said before, my knowledge is encyclopaediac when it comes to employment law, not far behind on criminal law. No time for FOXXY blog today. All my cases went well, especially one for young black lady, where i really kicked ass ( FOXXY influence) . However, in all four cases , judgement was reserved, to be given later. Arrived home in evening to be greeted by a " wheres my money " message from FOXXY. I am surprised. Although last week i REDEEMED MY PLEDGE EARLY , i had clearly stated in my diary entry that i was going to be totally tied up today and would have no time for FOXXY blog , let alone getting to FBA. We exchange several tweets, before Foxxy remembers that today is only Thursday. I am not annoyed, but i am hurt. FOXXY says she doesn't care about my hurt. Fine that is Her prerogative. I don't really care if She cares about my hurt or not. What i am disappointed in is that She doesn't fucking understand that my pledge is my honor , my respect, my fucking everything. Foxxy doesn't know me very well if She thinks i would ever dream of sacrificing my honor for money. Money has never had a big interest for me. I have been giving a lot of thought to this whole FinDom scene. It is so full of contradictions and also seems to be about drawing a line where fantasy ends and reality begins. A few days ago i had a bit of a heart to heart with FOXXY. We talked about respect, and how although in different roles of Goddess and sub, we could still have mutual respect for each other.. She stated that it was an acceptable contradiction. I had no problem with that at all, and in fact didn't even believe it to be a contradiction at all, remembering enemies for whom i had respect. The contradiction certainly doesn't end there. I can't remember the number of times i have heard FOXXY tell a sub that it is not about what there needs are , only about the needs of their Goddess. That is probably the greatest contradiction in the whole FinDom scene. The whole survival and profitability of Goddesses depends solely on the NEEDS OF SUBS. The need to be used, the need to be abused , the need to be humiliated, and most important of all, THE NEED NOT TO BE IGNORED. One of my favorite authors, Oscar Wilde, once said that the greatest contempt you can show to anyone is to ignore them. I wholeheartedly believe that to be true. On another front, I am thinking, that although new to this scene i should write a bit more about it . I have briefly looked on Domme dose at Moneyslave Matt ( no clue ) and the famous Irv O'Neil ( not in my league ). I have very strong views on the whole scene and on 95% of them i believe i am in agreement with ALMIGHTY GODDESS. Next week i embark upon a self imposed restraint from the Foxxy blog . She doesn't believe i can do it, but i believe it will be a piece of cake, such is my willpower. I don't crave or get a big thrill from the abuse or financial rape, or physical punishment. I know that FOXXY believes that Her strongest trump is the ignore card. I am not worried about that. Although i am a good team player, i have prefered most of my life to operate as a lone wolf. ( has anyone ever heard of a fox defeating a wolf hehe) I can cope with being ignored. All of which begs the question, why do i chose to follow MISS FOXX. That is an interesting question, but the answer must wait for another day.
Wednesday, 10 July 2013
Back to Work for You
Dear Goddess,
Just got home from seeing the play Wicked in Philadelphia, it is past 1AM here. i greatly enjoyed the play and i also enjoyed seeing so many refined Superior Black Women. i had lots of opportunities to hold doors, make compliments and sometimes just say hello/good evening which never failed to elicit a smile.
i just confirmed all Your scheduled tweets for tomorrow. Please let me know if You would prefer different times.
i am beat tired, so i am going to sleep now. i will be getting up again early in the morning so i can go back to work for You, searching for shoes for Your US Wishlist, clicking on banners and scheduling more tweets.
Your humble servant,
Just got home from seeing the play Wicked in Philadelphia, it is past 1AM here. i greatly enjoyed the play and i also enjoyed seeing so many refined Superior Black Women. i had lots of opportunities to hold doors, make compliments and sometimes just say hello/good evening which never failed to elicit a smile.
i just confirmed all Your scheduled tweets for tomorrow. Please let me know if You would prefer different times.
i am beat tired, so i am going to sleep now. i will be getting up again early in the morning so i can go back to work for You, searching for shoes for Your US Wishlist, clicking on banners and scheduling more tweets.
Your humble servant,
i Am Now Certain
Wednesday 10th July 2013 -- Got up an hour before my alarm, at 4am. Healthiest time of day. Wanted to send FOXXY a piece of Jewelry but got frustrated, so just sent a GC instead, boring. Exchanged a couple of tweets with AG. She is laughing at my self task and doesn't believe i can resist Her for a week. We shall see, but i don't just feel confident anymore , i am now certain. It is just a matter of distracting my mind, a tactic i used quite successfully when i was being tortured. Had enjoyable evening down west end, but arrived home 2320 feeling tired. Went to compose this entry and noticed a message from nite flirt. Its from someone call Hypnotic devil / goddess isabella, saying she will control me with her ass . Man, no fucking chance. Firstly FOXXY's ass is perfection, why would i want to look at another. Secondly, i will never ever follow another domme, it is either AG or nobody. Have a very busy day tomorrow, representing staff at no less than four separate disciplinary hearings. The problem with having a good reputation is that everybody wants You.. Its a daunting task and there will definitely be no twitter for me before evening time. Now for my bed.
Tuesday, 9 July 2013
Perfect Goddess
Dear Goddess,
i was so excited to see the photo of You wearing the new shoes i purchased for You. i will begin using it as my Worship photo tomorrow morning. You are the perfect Goddess for a boy with a foot fetish like me.
i worked very hard today to make up for not pleasing any Superior Black Women yesterday. i was astonished when i realized that i was getting quite excited every time i saw a Black Woman, knowing that i was getting another opportunity to please a Superior Black Woman and if i was lucky, perhaps receive a smile or thanks in response.
i also performed my daily tasks today, including clicking on all Your banners. I also clicked on all Your EliteFinancialDomination links to move them up in the rankings, but it looks like my clicks only count once. i clicked on them yesterday and saw that Your Miss Foxx's UK Amazon Wishlist link moved to the top of the 'Top Ranked' lists, but when i clicked on Your links again today i noticed that the click count didn't change.
i would also like to thank You for allowing me to assume responsibility for Your scheduled tweets. i am so thrilled that i am beginning to perform some of the functions of Your assistant.
Your humble servant,
i was so excited to see the photo of You wearing the new shoes i purchased for You. i will begin using it as my Worship photo tomorrow morning. You are the perfect Goddess for a boy with a foot fetish like me.
i worked very hard today to make up for not pleasing any Superior Black Women yesterday. i was astonished when i realized that i was getting quite excited every time i saw a Black Woman, knowing that i was getting another opportunity to please a Superior Black Woman and if i was lucky, perhaps receive a smile or thanks in response.
i also performed my daily tasks today, including clicking on all Your banners. I also clicked on all Your EliteFinancialDomination links to move them up in the rankings, but it looks like my clicks only count once. i clicked on them yesterday and saw that Your Miss Foxx's UK Amazon Wishlist link moved to the top of the 'Top Ranked' lists, but when i clicked on Your links again today i noticed that the click count didn't change.
i would also like to thank You for allowing me to assume responsibility for Your scheduled tweets. i am so thrilled that i am beginning to perform some of the functions of Your assistant.
Your humble servant,
Spirits Were Instantly Restored
Tuesday 9th July 2013 --- Last night when composing this entry i was very down. I was scared that the slender bond between AG and i might have been irretrievably broken. I went to bed depressed and down hearted. And then, as if by magic , a simple short FOXXY tweet and my spirits were instantly restored. I maintained my high spirits throughout the day. I breezed through work and through a regional executive meeting of my trade union, with an air of superiority , feeling i was in total control of everything. I guess you could say i had that FOXXY feeling. God i do love her so much. I will try tomorrow to forward my first actual gift, as so far i have only done GC's and FBA. However, i have also decided to set myself a difficult task. I have always had phenomenal willpower , being able to resist everything from T to T . ( Torture to temptation) However, i have never met anyone like FOXXY before and i can feel an addiction growing. Therefore i have set myself the task that throughout all of next week i will abstain from the FOXXY blog. I will merely email this log entry, which should be shorter than usual, as well as the detail of my FBA pledge. It is certainly not going to be easy to maintain my Fast, but i know that i can do it. In the unlikely event of my failing to abstain, it will mean i have lost total control and You know who, is in complete charge. Interesting challenge, one half of me fighting with every fibre to totally submit to AG, and the other half portraying a lifetime of stubbornness and self discipline. The kick off for the big game is midnight on Sunday.
Monday, 8 July 2013
Mentally Dominated by You
Dear Goddess,
i had a late night this day and was so exhausted that i was ready to just collapse and go to sleep. Then i remembered that i hadn't submitted my daily diary. Even though i desperately wanted to just go to sleep i did not dare fail to do as You expect.
i spent the day working around my house and dealing with various issues that i had to attend to. i never left my home today so i did not have any opportunities to please Superior Black Women. i will have to make up for my shortcoming tomorrow.
Thank You for replying to my tweet regarding being mentally dominated by You. It is that aspect of Your training that has absolutely blown me away. You seem to know how to constantly reel me in and i am powerless to resist You. Actually, i have no desire to resist You and i am now back on my knees where i belong, begging You to take me as Your property.
Your humble servant,
i had a late night this day and was so exhausted that i was ready to just collapse and go to sleep. Then i remembered that i hadn't submitted my daily diary. Even though i desperately wanted to just go to sleep i did not dare fail to do as You expect.
i spent the day working around my house and dealing with various issues that i had to attend to. i never left my home today so i did not have any opportunities to please Superior Black Women. i will have to make up for my shortcoming tomorrow.
Thank You for replying to my tweet regarding being mentally dominated by You. It is that aspect of Your training that has absolutely blown me away. You seem to know how to constantly reel me in and i am powerless to resist You. Actually, i have no desire to resist You and i am now back on my knees where i belong, begging You to take me as Your property.
Your humble servant,
Sunday, 7 July 2013
"Not Impressed"
Sunday 7th July 2013 --This date will forever be etched on my mind because of my vivid memories of the Tube and bus bombings on 7/7 2005. In the early morning i harangue a manager about lack of staff on my station for our busiest day of the week and i talk about closing the station. I get extra staff. Am happy to see from Her tweets that AG is enjoying Her weekend. I get a call from my Chinese lady friend reminding me that she is coming to my house in the afternoon for a barbeque. Shit, i had forgotten. She calls around with another lady friend and we have an enjoyable afternoon/early evening. I see a " not impressed" tweet from FOXXY and immediately check my emails. AG has perceived from my diary entry an insult to one of Her boys. I really admire Her loyalty in jumping to his defence, but i plead 100% not guilty. No offence to the boy was ever intended and i am satisfied was never given. I send an email stating my defence. The whole matter has left me feeling really down. I had spent most of the day trying to come up with a suitable tribute to start the week for FOXXY and now feel like a mule has kicked me in the guts. I can only pray that ALMIGHTY GODDESS will take a favorable view of my explanation. As always , everything is in Her hands, for the power and the glory belong to MISS FOXX.
Things for Your Pleasure
Dear Goddess,
i hope You had an relaxing weekend and enjoyed Yourself. my weekend has been fairly busy as i have worked to accomplish things for Your pleasure. my previous email to You included my paper on black actresses, i hope it was satisfactory. It took me by surprise when i received that task. i wasn't expecting to continue receiving class like assignments, but i am thrilled whenever i get an opportunity to try to please You.
i was also working a bit today on the banner links i've been establishing for You. i've updated the links to correspond to Your reactivated links page and i also clicked on all the banner sites from this page to move You up in the rankings. Your banner has now also been added to another banner site : http://www.financial-domination.eu/femdom/. Yours is the eighth one down.
As always i completed all the tasks involved in my daily routine and i also watched for opportunities to please Superior Black Women. i almost got myself into some trouble today doing this. i came across an attractive Black Woman in a store and i complimented her on the colorful blouse she was wearing. She appeared to appreciate the compliment, but her hulking boyfriend that came up behind me did not seem to be amused. He did not seem to be inclined to make a scene in a public place and i did not hang around long enough to test that theory.
i've also been working with Your assistant on my training to become Your new assistant. So far it all looks fairly straight forward and i am hopeful that i can pass the trial period and become a more permanent servant for Your pleasure.
Your humble servant,
i hope You had an relaxing weekend and enjoyed Yourself. my weekend has been fairly busy as i have worked to accomplish things for Your pleasure. my previous email to You included my paper on black actresses, i hope it was satisfactory. It took me by surprise when i received that task. i wasn't expecting to continue receiving class like assignments, but i am thrilled whenever i get an opportunity to try to please You.
i was also working a bit today on the banner links i've been establishing for You. i've updated the links to correspond to Your reactivated links page and i also clicked on all the banner sites from this page to move You up in the rankings. Your banner has now also been added to another banner site : http://www.financial-domination.eu/femdom/. Yours is the eighth one down.
As always i completed all the tasks involved in my daily routine and i also watched for opportunities to please Superior Black Women. i almost got myself into some trouble today doing this. i came across an attractive Black Woman in a store and i complimented her on the colorful blouse she was wearing. She appeared to appreciate the compliment, but her hulking boyfriend that came up behind me did not seem to be amused. He did not seem to be inclined to make a scene in a public place and i did not hang around long enough to test that theory.
i've also been working with Your assistant on my training to become Your new assistant. So far it all looks fairly straight forward and i am hopeful that i can pass the trial period and become a more permanent servant for Your pleasure.
Your humble servant,
Saturday, 6 July 2013
Ice Cold Shower
Saturday 6th July 2013 -- Arose before my alarm feeling fit and well. I went to the bathroom and had a little chuckle to myself. The reason for my early morning chuckle is that today i have decided to voluntarily suffer as a tribute to FOXXY. It has been a long time since i have endured an ice cold shower, but today is the day. It is uncomfortably chilly, but i grit my teeth and remember that i am suffering for my beloved ALMIGHTY GODDESS. I find it rather ironic, that while enduring the shower itself was quite unpleasant, the surging of energy and feeling of freshness afterwards, leaves me feeling positively invigorated. Mmm maybe there is something in this sacrifice business after all. FOXXY favors one of my tweets about Eve and Delilah and i send Her a happy weekend greeting. I had been worried that AG might have been annoyed with my diary entry yesterday, as it may have seemed to slag some of Her friends. However, She is very understanding and states that She agrees with my points. I am pleased about that, as having already received two warnings, i didn't want to get into any more hot water. I have a relaxing evening at home and am pleased to hear that FOXXY is enjoying Herself. I am thinking that it is about time i started doing some serious writing again, something i have neglected for quite a while. After next Thursday i have four days off work, and in two weeks time i have three weeks leave, so i may get an opportunity to indulge my passion. One of my two passions in life, now darn it, if only i could remember what the other one is ?
More Painful
Dear Goddess,
It was perversely exciting this morning to think about You luxuriating in a London hotel room while i was whipping myself for Your pleasure. It was also quite frustrating as i doubt i was even worthy of being on Your mind at the time. If that wasn't all humiliating enough, i then had to submit my first weekly reparation to You. And once again i am now on my knees, begging You to allow me to remain Under Consideration.
As You may be able to tell from the photo i posted, this week's whipping was much more painful than last week's. i started off with a vicious strapping to my back and i didn't let up as i was determined to make sure i left marks that were visible enough for You to see. i wanted to demonstrate the sincerity of my devotion to You and Your pleasure.
Today i also strove to make up for my failure to please any Superior Black Women yesterday. It seems that today was devoted to elderly Black Women as i had multiple opportunities to make compliments about attractive blouses and jewelry. Once again i was rewarded with encouraging thanks and smiles.
It is getting a bit late and i am tired. i would like to go to sleep now, but i have to get back to work on my assignment on black actresses as well as some follow up work on the banner links i am submitting for You.
Your humble servant,
It was perversely exciting this morning to think about You luxuriating in a London hotel room while i was whipping myself for Your pleasure. It was also quite frustrating as i doubt i was even worthy of being on Your mind at the time. If that wasn't all humiliating enough, i then had to submit my first weekly reparation to You. And once again i am now on my knees, begging You to allow me to remain Under Consideration.
As You may be able to tell from the photo i posted, this week's whipping was much more painful than last week's. i started off with a vicious strapping to my back and i didn't let up as i was determined to make sure i left marks that were visible enough for You to see. i wanted to demonstrate the sincerity of my devotion to You and Your pleasure.
Today i also strove to make up for my failure to please any Superior Black Women yesterday. It seems that today was devoted to elderly Black Women as i had multiple opportunities to make compliments about attractive blouses and jewelry. Once again i was rewarded with encouraging thanks and smiles.
It is getting a bit late and i am tired. i would like to go to sleep now, but i have to get back to work on my assignment on black actresses as well as some follow up work on the banner links i am submitting for You.
Your humble servant,
Friday, 5 July 2013
My Second Whipping
Dear Goddess,
i got quite a thrill out of hearing about Your boy tidying Your home today, but i was truly jealous. i would love to serve You in that manner, but i know that i will never be worthy of that honor. i just hope that someday i will be able to serve You in other ways that please You.
i was also glad to see that my response to Your Black Female Supremacy question on EliteFinancialDomination pleased You. i am sorry to say that today i did not have any opportunities to compliment or assist Superior Black Women. i shall have to work twice as hard tomorrow to make up for my shortcoming.
Speaking of tomorrow, i have been thinking quite a bit about having to endure my second whipping for Your pleasure. i hope it will please You when i submit my first weekly reparation immediately after experiencing the pain of my whipping.
Your humble servant,
i got quite a thrill out of hearing about Your boy tidying Your home today, but i was truly jealous. i would love to serve You in that manner, but i know that i will never be worthy of that honor. i just hope that someday i will be able to serve You in other ways that please You.
i was also glad to see that my response to Your Black Female Supremacy question on EliteFinancialDomination pleased You. i am sorry to say that today i did not have any opportunities to compliment or assist Superior Black Women. i shall have to work twice as hard tomorrow to make up for my shortcoming.
Speaking of tomorrow, i have been thinking quite a bit about having to endure my second whipping for Your pleasure. i hope it will please You when i submit my first weekly reparation immediately after experiencing the pain of my whipping.
Your humble servant,
It Isn't a Licence To Print Money
Friday 5th July 2013 -- Awoke before 5am feeling fit and fresh. I like the early shift , particularly at this time of the year, its the healthiest time of the day. I had a quite day on both my work and FOXXY fronts. I exchanged a morning greeting with AG and had a tweet favorited later in the day. I cleared up the havoc caused by my son and chilled out with a glass of wine. Its the end of another week on the FOXXY blog and i have to say i am starting to get a bit bored with a lot of the tweets from other dommes. The whining and moaning about things that other dommes and some subs have done to them is quite unbelievable. In this life shit happens, people don't play by the rules. Learn to deal with it, stop crying like babies and get on with life, trying not to repeat any mistakes you may have made. Goddesses ? blah, some of them are more pathetic than the subs they dominate. I know ALMIGHTY GODDESS may be pissed off with me for slagging off some of her colleagues( fellow dommes) and i run the risk of her wrath. I have , however , promised to be always open and honest. Dommes have chosen a path to follow. It isn't a licence to print money. It isn't sufficient to merely say " i am a goddess, bow down and send me your money". You have to be professional, learn your business, get wise to problems that may arise and find ways to deal with them. It is hypocritical to slag off whinging subs and then whine more than them yourself. Be professional . That professionalism is what attracted me to FOXXY, but it is a quality sadly lacking in many of the dommes out there.
Intense Connection
Dear Goddess,
i felt an intense connection with You as it seemed that You sent me my new task almost at the same time as i posted my daily tweet of worship to You. i did not expect my Black Female Supremacy assignments to continue after i graduated, but i was excited when i read Your new task for me. i suppose this means that i have begun my post graduate studies.
i surprised myself again today as i realized just how instinctive it is becoming for me to be on the lookout for opportunities to please Superior Black Women. i was doing some shopping for a Fourth of July barbecue and when i reached the checkout lines i looked for the line that had a Black Female checker. Her line was longer than the others but i found myself queued up in it without even thinking about what i was doing. As my turn to be checked out came up i made sure to give her a sincere smile as i said hello and asked her how her day was. She seemed genuinely pleased that someone cared about how she was feeling and continued to smile and chat with me as she rung up my purchases. i do hope that it pleases You that i have made it my daily goal to brighten the day for at least one, and preferably more, Superior Black Females.
i was also quite excited when i saw Your new blog entry about two boys that are currently Under Consideration by You. i was a bit crestfallen when i saw that i was not worthy of being named by You, but i acknowledge that i have not earned such an honor. i am on my knees now, begging You to continue to keep me Under Consideration.
By the way, i have been tracking the latest pair of shoes i purchased for You. Attached is a photo of them. They were shipped from the USA, but have now cleared British customs and should arrive sometime in the next few days.
Your humble servant
Domme Dose
Thursday 4th July 2013--Not long after writing yesterday's entry i found i couldn't sleep and so composed an email to AG regarding a Domme dose blog by Queen Kitty. I finally managed to sleep but was awakened about 9am by my son fervently kissing my cheek. I worry a little about him as he is having a cold and is coughing quite a bit. He refuses to eat his breakfast. I forward a couple of FOXXY tweets, including one which mentions Naomi Campbell. For that one i am suitably admonished by AG. In the afternoon i take my son to his playgroup. The children are given little snacks at the end and, having refused breakfast , my asked for two more helpings. I am embarrassed. They may think that i don't feed him. On arrival home i find a FOXXY reply to my late night email about the Domme dose article. I am pleased by it. In the evening i take my son to my friend's place, as i have to rise at 5am for my early shift. He cries when i leave and i feel guilty. The bond between us is really strong. Foxxy had an accident with Her laptop in the afternoon and i wonder if a new one will be on a wishlist. Knowing the professionalism of AG , She probably has several.. My son has left my house looking like it has been hit by a hurricane, but i feel too tired and will do the cleanup tomorrow.
Wednesday, 3 July 2013
Focus
Dear Goddess,
Today was another busy day and although i did not communicate directly with You very much, You still were the focus of a good portion of my day. As always the beginning of my day found me kneeling at my shrine to You as i described in my daily tweet. i also thought about You as i performed my ten minutes of jumping & dancing and i thought about You again later on as i spent my ten minutes in darkness. And of course i thought about You during the rest of the day as i followed Your tweets and watched for opportunities to please Superior Black Females.
i have to admit that i am coming to enjoy having You on my mind so often during the course of my days. i was quite excited today as i read Your teasing tweets about Your time with Your boy. He was so lucky to spend time with You like that, thank You for sharing.
i am getting very sleepy, so i am going to bed now.
Your humble servant,
Today was another busy day and although i did not communicate directly with You very much, You still were the focus of a good portion of my day. As always the beginning of my day found me kneeling at my shrine to You as i described in my daily tweet. i also thought about You as i performed my ten minutes of jumping & dancing and i thought about You again later on as i spent my ten minutes in darkness. And of course i thought about You during the rest of the day as i followed Your tweets and watched for opportunities to please Superior Black Females.
i have to admit that i am coming to enjoy having You on my mind so often during the course of my days. i was quite excited today as i read Your teasing tweets about Your time with Your boy. He was so lucky to spend time with You like that, thank You for sharing.
i am getting very sleepy, so i am going to bed now.
Your humble servant,
FOXXY's Class Ass
Wednesday 3rd July 2013 --My son was overjoyed to awaken and find his dad lying beside him. Just as with AG, my son's happiness means the world to me. Unfortunately today he has a cold and chest cough and he clings to me even more than usual. I tweet FOXXY wishing her all the best for the day. One of the other dommes is irate about someone stealing her work. I give my son a bath and then we visit the supermarket. Later in the afternoon we visit FBA and then we chat to my wife on cam. She is 7000 miles away and misses her son. When she was here she suffered badly with depression, caused by home sickness. She used to smash things in the house and on occasions tried to harm both herself and i, though fortunately not our son. He misses his mum,but even my wife concedes he has always been a daddy's boy. I have a way with children. My late mum used to tell me it was because i am just a big child who never grew up. There could be some truth in that. I spent a little time trawling through FOXXY's blog and my son spotted Charlee and was fascinated by him. AG blogs a bit of todays RT and as regards a photo of Her sub sucking Her toes , She asks how much we want this? If i was being truthful, i would probably answer "not a lot". Of course i am always aware, not as forgetful as i pretend, that it doesn't matter what us subs want, we are only here for the amusement of our Goddess. On the other hand i have to admit that the picture of FOXXY's class ass does look quite yummy. Have managed to shut out the pain in my gammy foot all day, i stopped taking my medication because of side effects, but now it is throbbing and i am tired, so it is an early night.
Tuesday, 2 July 2013
A Sign of Things to Come
Dear Goddess,
i had a very late night this day, taking care of car problems for my younger daughter. i am just now getting to bed, while i see from Your tweets that You are already up for the new day.
i was blown away this morning when i read Your email about making weekly reparations. i guess i should have expected at some point that You would require weekly tributes from me, but the reality of it was a bit overwhelming. Things seem to be moving very fast, it has only been a month since i came across You and i can't believe how much i have done for You already - the gift cards, the wishlists, the pedicures, more gift cards, Your Black Female Supremacy classes, my daily routine, my weekly whippings and now weekly reparations.
i have to admit that i read Your comment about 'a sign of things to come' with a significant amount of trepidation. i can't imagine how things with You can get much more intense, but somehow i suspect they will.
Although today was fairly hectic i did maintain my daily routine as You expect. i am also a bit surprised at how natural it is becoming for me to be constantly on the lookout for opportunities to please Superior Black Females. i have to be careful that i don't get too enthusiastic about it. For instance today i encountered an elderly black woman and i noticed that she was wearing bright colored earrings. i complimented her on the earrings and She responded that they were just cheap costume jewelry. i continued to insist that they looked very nice, but she refused to acknowledge that they were. She was good natured about it, but i think i made a bit of a fool of myself.
i hope You are feeling much better today. i expect sunshine!
Your humble servant,
i had a very late night this day, taking care of car problems for my younger daughter. i am just now getting to bed, while i see from Your tweets that You are already up for the new day.
i was blown away this morning when i read Your email about making weekly reparations. i guess i should have expected at some point that You would require weekly tributes from me, but the reality of it was a bit overwhelming. Things seem to be moving very fast, it has only been a month since i came across You and i can't believe how much i have done for You already - the gift cards, the wishlists, the pedicures, more gift cards, Your Black Female Supremacy classes, my daily routine, my weekly whippings and now weekly reparations.
i have to admit that i read Your comment about 'a sign of things to come' with a significant amount of trepidation. i can't imagine how things with You can get much more intense, but somehow i suspect they will.
Although today was fairly hectic i did maintain my daily routine as You expect. i am also a bit surprised at how natural it is becoming for me to be constantly on the lookout for opportunities to please Superior Black Females. i have to be careful that i don't get too enthusiastic about it. For instance today i encountered an elderly black woman and i noticed that she was wearing bright colored earrings. i complimented her on the earrings and She responded that they were just cheap costume jewelry. i continued to insist that they looked very nice, but she refused to acknowledge that they were. She was good natured about it, but i think i made a bit of a fool of myself.
i hope You are feeling much better today. i expect sunshine!
Your humble servant,
One Stubborn Little Bastard
Tuesday 2nd July --- Upon awakening i make an immediate decision not to take any medication today. I can endure pain so long as my brain is clear. In another life a long time ago as a young man, shortly before FOXXY was born, i endured a lot of physical torture which while it made my body weaker, it toughened me mentally and made me one stubborn little bastard. I am soon distressed to discover that ALMIGHTY GODDESS is unwell. I tweet Her fond regards. Happily after a little rest She was soon back to Her cheery feisty self. In the afternoon i asked AG if she had a forwarding address. I was actually quite hopeful that She might have a box number, at the same time being a little apprehensive that if She didn't, She might think i was being presumptuous and looking for Her personal address. Nothing could be further from the truth. The two cornerstones on which i have built my life are trust and respect. I don't give either of them lightly, they have to be earned, and i would not expect AG to be any different. I did try and explain myself to FOXXY and plead with Her not to take offence. I hope She didn't . From work i went to collect my son. I hadn't seen him for a few days and really missed him. I am looking to spend some quality time with him over the next two days. Like AG he is a Libra and just as rapturous . On getting home i see a lot of domme traffic about training subs. Foxxy talks about teaching us selflessness. It is a topic on which i don't require any coaching. I have been a selfless person all my life and have never been interested in material things. I always prefered to help others, though admittedly not Goddesses. If i had been materialistic i could be a very wealthy man, i have certainly had plenty of opportunity. I do believe that one day AG will come to trust me . That belief is based on the sure and certain knowledge that i will never give Her any reason not to.
Monday, 1 July 2013
A Pedicure For my Goddess Miss Foxx
Dear Goddess,
i spent most of my day in Philadelphia where i was blessed to be surrounded by many Superior Black Females. i kept a constant eye out for opportunities to hold doors, make compliments and otherwise be of service. my goal was to please as many Superior Black Females as possible. A lot of my compliments were made regarding the many awesome braided hairstyles i was fortunate enough to observe. i also told one younger Black Female that i thought Her orange fingernails were very pretty. i received a lovely smile in return and She thanked me for noticing.
i replied to one of Your tweets while i was traveling, regarding the leopard print shoes. i had purchased them for You at the same time as the red shoes you received today. i sincerely hope You enjoy all Your new foot wear. Those shoes look so hot, but i'm sure they couldn't look more perfect than when they are on Your lovely feet.
After i returned home i also paid for Your pedicure today. Just in case you didn't see it, here is the poem i sent to You via NiteFlirt along with the payment:
A pedicure for my Goddess Miss Foxx
Who deserves only the finest footwear
Please don't cover Your lovely feet with socks
So i can worship them, please leave them bare
Your humble servant,
i spent most of my day in Philadelphia where i was blessed to be surrounded by many Superior Black Females. i kept a constant eye out for opportunities to hold doors, make compliments and otherwise be of service. my goal was to please as many Superior Black Females as possible. A lot of my compliments were made regarding the many awesome braided hairstyles i was fortunate enough to observe. i also told one younger Black Female that i thought Her orange fingernails were very pretty. i received a lovely smile in return and She thanked me for noticing.
i replied to one of Your tweets while i was traveling, regarding the leopard print shoes. i had purchased them for You at the same time as the red shoes you received today. i sincerely hope You enjoy all Your new foot wear. Those shoes look so hot, but i'm sure they couldn't look more perfect than when they are on Your lovely feet.
After i returned home i also paid for Your pedicure today. Just in case you didn't see it, here is the poem i sent to You via NiteFlirt along with the payment:
A pedicure for my Goddess Miss Foxx
Who deserves only the finest footwear
Please don't cover Your lovely feet with socks
So i can worship them, please leave them bare
Your humble servant,
Happiness of FOXXY
Monday 1st July 2013 -- Didn't have a very sleepful night and awoke feeling really ill with nausea and a bad headache. I have been taking some medicine for my gammy foot, and while my foot is improving i am really suffering the side effects of the medication. I receive a FOXXY tweet in which She teases me about missing Her yesterday. I easily concede that of course i missed Her, but i was also worried that She might have been stressed about the new blog regulations. AG seems confident that She is on top of the situation and i am very happy for Her . The happiness of FOXXY really does mean a lot to me. I go to work , but advise my management that my fitness for duty ( safety critical ) is borderline. I exchange a couple of light hearted tweets with AG, but am really just concentrating on getting through the day. In the evening i am approached by an attractive black lady who advises me that she had her wallet stolen. She is about the same age as FOXXY and quite beautiful , though not as stunning as ALMIGHTY GODDESS. Then again nobody is. She is singing in a local night club. I report the matter to the police and she gives me her phone number. In my pre FOXXY days i might have been tempted to chase her up , but now i have been tamed by AG. I decided today that i wanted to spend this week trying to learn all of FOXXY's favorite things and so started trawling through all of her blogs. At the end of the day i am feeling curious about Cyraneo. Nil fhios agam.
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