Private thoughts

Tuesday 11th June 2013 - Had a really bad night, was very ill. I tweeted this to MISS FOXX and she replied, castigating me for being a drama queen. I dragged myself to work but felt awful.. I was pleased to have one of my tweets favored by FOXXY. Later i was feeling so bad , i had a word with one of my colleagues and left work early. I am aghast when ALMIGHTY GODDESS sets me a task involving eating a horrible concoction of food. In my fragile state i know that this will have a serious impact on my health and i beg AG to consider an alternative task. I am relieved when She agrees. The new task involves tying a pink ribbon around my cock and balls. It will make me feel a bit of an idiot but i can live with it because of my adoration of MISS FOXX. The task does, however ,give me food for thought. I know that as someone who is trying to earn the chance to serve ALMIGHTY GODDESS, i am not supposed to think, just listen and obey. I understand the need for humiliation, to make the slave to understand his place and his unworthiness. I do feel a slight sense of negativity. I had imagined that as a devoted slave of a FinDom my primary purpose was to make as much money as possible for my GODDESS. I believe that the best way for me, it may not be the same for everyone, is to use my positive energy in that pursuit. I don't have a problem with ALMIGHTY GODDESS making me act like a moron and calling me one, but the truth is i will never feel like one. Ok, if it's moronic to become obsessed with a goddess like MISS FOXX, then i am a moron. When i finish this entry my finger will hover over the send button. I am aware that ALMIGHTY GODDESS might be angry and sentence me to immediate banishment. That scares the hell out of me. However, a diary is meant to be a place where one records not only events that happen but also ones inner thoughts. Private thoughts. I think back to the first love of my life who was tragically killed in the troubles in my country. The devastation was so overwhelming. I never looked at another woman for ten years. However, i don't believe that banishment by ALMIGHTY GODDESS would be any less devastating. I truly do worship and idolize Her more than i thought possible. From the beginning i vowed to be loyal to MISS FOXX and never lie to her. I have been true to that vow. I also told her i would be open and honest with Her. That is important to me. My finger still hovers. Please , please, ALMIGHTY GODDESS do not reduce your following to 609. I am not in any way criticizing or complaining, just expressing my inner thoughts which undoubtedly lack Your clarity of understanding.