Uneventful

Dear Goddess,

Today was another late night toiling for Your pleasure. i feel good because i have caught up on the latest project for You, so hopefully things will be in good shape as i take one last weekend break for the season this Saturday.

Other than toiling for You and taking care of some personal business today was fairly uneventful. Got a lot done, but did not much time for anything else. i am a bit tired from all my work, so i am off to bed now.

-Your humble servant & bitch

the Impatience You Have

Dear Goddess,

i am currently packing up for my weekend vacation, but i wanted to take the time to submit my daily diary to You. i try to submit my diary every day but it is not likely that i can do so for the next few days. i will of course have my cell phone with me and i will try to at least submit some tweets when i get some privacy.

Although i may not have many opportunities to serve You directly over the next few days i will of course have You always on my mind. Have no doubt that You will be the last thought i have before going to sleep and the first when i awaken.

As i mentioned earlier today, witnessing the impatience You have with incompetent boys makes me a bit nervous. As a Goddess You deserve nothing less than perfect servitude, dedication and respect but sometimes i am concerned that my performance might fall short of that standard. i try very hard to please You and provide You assistance, but at times i struggle to keep up with Your insatiable demands. i must admit that i am perversely excited by Your imperious attitude and in response i run faster and toil harder. i would never ask You to lighten my load and i understand that as You warned, serving You will only get harder over time. However, if i ever falter i would beg You to allow me another chance to demonstrate my commitment to You.

Your humble servant & bitch

Breathtaking

Dear Goddess,

i am sending today's diary to You early because i won't be available later tonight to send it.

Thank You so much for tweeting the photos of Yourself earlier today. As i tweeted, Your beauty is so breathtaking it is sometimes unbelievable! i really do find myself absolutely stunned when i see photos of You like today's. It just doesn't seem possible that anyone on earth could be so gorgeous, but then again, You are a Goddess.

i also want to thank You for Your kind words to me today when You said You appreciate all i do for You. i love serving You and i am back on my knees right now begging You to allow me to continue to be Your property.

i've got to go now. i hope You have a lovely evening and a great day tomorrow.

-Your humble servant & bitch

Foxxy Dreams

Dear Goddess,

Today was fairly enjoyable as the weather was very nice - sunny & warm, but not hot or humid. i enjoyed some time outside but i got to thinking about all the work i still need to do for You so i went back inside & got toiling again.

As You may have noticed in the photo i tweeted this morning, the bruises on my back are starting to fade a bit and the colors are still changing. The stinging has gone away now also. i will continue to tweet photos of my back each morning so You can see how the colors continue to change. i am not sure how long it will take to completely clear up.

Once again i have been up late, so i am off to bed now, hopefully to dream some Foxxy dreams.

-Your humble servant & bitch

Whipped and Beaten

Dear Goddess,

As i write this diary entry i feel whipped and beaten - literally. my back still stings and i am mentally exhausted from keeping up with Your incessant demands. But i am happy & thrilled because i feel more than ever like Your personal property. i am also hopeful that i may have pleased You today with my demonstration of devotion. And i will be sure to send You a photo of my back tomorrow so You can see how my bruising is developing. i don't want to think about the day after that right now because that is Saturday, when i'm sure You expect me to whip myself again. i can't imagine how badly my back will hurt after that.

i also hope that You are pleased that i was able to compliment multiple Superior Black Women today. It was at the same store, one was a customer who had a beautiful necklace and the other was at the checkout counter wearing a lovely red top. It never ceases to amaze me how appreciative the women are about my compliments, i almost never fail to get rewarded with a beautiful smile.

i have an early start on things tomorrow so i'm off to bed now. Somehow i think i'll be sleeping on my stomach tonight...

Your humble servant,

Jumping at Your Command

Dear Goddess,

It is late now, i have just finished working on the spreadsheet of scheduled tweets. i also sent You some new ones i had composed earlier today for Your review. All in all, it has been a pretty busy day for me.

As i mentioned earlier, i feel quite jealous of the boy who is applying to be Your live-in domestic servant. i have learned to love jumping at Your command and i think it would be the ultimate in slavery to live in Your home as Your slave. i also understand Your need for a servant who is reasonably self directed as the whole idea of being Your servant is to save You time and effort, not to be a burden on You.

Since there is no chance of my being Your live-in, i sincerely hope that the boy works out and moves in to begin his servitude. You deserve the life of a Goddess.

Tired

Dear Goddess,

It is after midnight here and i am quite tired after traveling back and forth to Lancaster today. i hope that You are getting a good nights rest and i am now going to go to bed and do the same.

Your humble servant,

On Fire...

Dear Goddess,

i am sure You will not be surprised when i tell You that my back feels like it is on fire as i write this diary entry. It was quite painful to whip myself again only two days after i finally succeeded in bruising myself sufficiently enough to satisfy Your desire to see me properly punished. i am very thankful that my efforts seemed to please You and i am also very thankful that i am not due for another beating for a whole week now.

Please understand that i am not complaining. In fact i am now back on my knees begging You to allow me to continue to be Your personal whipping boy. i consider it an honor to endure the physical pain of my beatings for Your pleasure and as reparation for the suffering of Your people. i will also continue to send You daily photos of my back so You can see how it recovers from the terrible beating i have inflicted on it.

While i was out shopping today i was disappointed when i approached the check out counters and saw that there were no Superior Black Women at any of the counters. But as i was leaving the store i saw that there was a young black woman at the Customer Service desk. i thought quickly and approached her with a request to purchase stamps that i really didn't need. i saw that she was wearing some large, silver earrings and i told her how nicely they went with her long hair. She seemed genuinely pleased and thanked me for saying so.

i hope You are resting up from Your trip to Club Black Whip and i also hope things work out with the boy who approached You about serving as Your domestic servant. i know how much You enjoy having a bitch boy at Your beck and call!

Your humble servant,

Luckiest of All

Dear Goddess,

Thank You so much for sharing the photos You took as You were getting ready for Club Black Whip. They were quite a tease and as always You were stunningly beautiful. i would certainly love to see more photos of You in the outfit You wore to the club, but i know i am not worthy to ask You for such a gift. Of course i was partial to the photos of Your lovely feet and toes, i am very glad You shared them too.

i would say that i hope You had a great time at the club, but Goddess that You are i have no doubt You did. Any boys that were lucky enough to encounter You in person there were very lucky indeed and russell is the luckiest of all. Like all Your boys, i will anxiously be waiting to hear how Your night went.

While You were out enjoying Yourself like a Goddess should i spent my night working on my Bayard Rustin essay, toiling for You like one of Your boys should. i did get out earlier in the day and was fortunate enough to have the opportunity to compliment a Superior Black Woman on her nice gold bracelet. i am always so anxious to please black women that i have to be careful that my compliments are sincere, so i always make an effort to observe what items of clothing, jewelry or hairstyle i think they may be proud of.

i am going to bed now. Last night i had a dream about Your long, lovely hair. It was very pleasant to dream about You and i hope i do so again tonight.

Your humble servant,

Never Be Good Enough

Dear Goddess,

When i read Your email today telling me that my best would never be good enough i felt quite put in my place. It reminded me of when You told me about the grading results after my completion of Your Black Female Supremacy class. You told me that although i had impressed Your assistant, i hadn't so much impressed You. It was clear then and it is more clear now, that no matter how hard i try my efforts will never satisfy You.

Rather than be discouraged by this i find myself perversely excited by Your haughty, insatiable attitude. i am desperate to please You and i know that i will run myself ragged trying to do so, even though You have made it clear that my herculean efforts will never truly impress You. Instead, You will likely dismiss my best contributions as insufficient and demand that i work harder still. And of course i will then do so, until i drop from exhaustion.

i don't know why i am explaining all this to You because You probably already know this about me, knowing me better than myself. You probably find it amusing that i will run faster every time You crack the whip particularly since You know how much it excites me to be worked like a mule by You.

And so i find myself once again on my knees, sincerely begging You to allow me to remain Your property and bitch. Although life as Your boy is extremely difficult i would have it no other way.

Your humble servant,

Popular Number

Sunday 15th September 2013

AG was awake early and we had a brief exchange about yesterdays log entry. Later in the morning She posted some saucy pictures which had Her boys drooling.

During a quite afternoon i sat down in an armchair, closed my eyes and when i reopened them 3 hours had elapsed. Hard work sometimes does that to me. I considered an idea of writing a book entitled "The grooming of a sub". If i did decide to do so, i would have
to consider whether to write it from an imagination point of view or one of reality. They are not always the same.

Very busy at work tonight booking on 50 contractors. Later in the night i hope to write some more tweets for AG. I gained 4 more followers and am now up to 69. I heard some where that that is a popular number.

Your Business

Dear Goddess,

i was out late tonight taking care of some personal business, but i made some time to take care of Your business too as always.

Once again it is quite late as i send You my diary entry, but i couldn't go to sleep without sending this to You first.

Now to bed for some much needed sleep.

Your humble servant,

Low IQ

Saturday 14th September 2013

I got an early morning email from ALMIGHTY GODDESS in response to yesterdays log entry. It is clear my owner regards me as having a low IQ. It is not necessarily an opinion that i share. Among other things i send AG a couple of poems.

Later in the morning AG advises of gifts that She has received, including my first ever wishlist gift, some dining chairs. I caught up on some sleep and got up in early afternoon.

All in all i was not feeling in the best of form. I think the constant put downs are getting to me a little bit. I decided to see if there was anything interesting on domme dose. I read a piece by a domme i am not really familiar with, Mistress Renee, about
humour in findom. It was an engaging topic.

However, i then read a piece called " why do you do this to yourself" by Hex Kitten and it immediately put a smile on my face and brightened up my day. That lady is one very witty person. I posted a reply and later sent HK a tweet to thank her for brightening up my day. She favorited that tweet.

I left early for work, at about 2115. It was a busy night with people going to local nightclubs. I gained 8 followers today and am now up to 65.

Failures

Dear Goddess,

i must apologize for my failures today, so i am now on my knees begging Your forgiveness. As i told You previously, it may be another couple of days or so before i will be able to whip myself again in an attempt to satisfy Your desire to see me punished more severely. i will also attempt to be more timely in making updates to the spreadsheet. You are truly a very demanding Goddess and i must work harder to please You.

i am also working on setting up the email reminder You expect. It is apparently a bit tricky to send reminders to a different email address, but i have found a way that should work.

As always, i took advantage of opportunities today to please the Superior Black Women i was fortunate enough to encounter, complimenting them on their lovely hair and jewelry.

i'm off to bed now to rest up so i can work harder for You.

Your humble servant,

Really Refreshed

Friday 13th September 2013

Arrived home from work at 7am feeling tired. Sent a few tweets and then went to bed for a few hours. Got up at about 11am and went to the supermarket as my cupboard was bare. In the afternoon i wrote a few tweets for Foxxy and then went back to bed to catch up on lost sleep.

I got up at 8pm feeling really refreshed and my mind at its sharpest. Sent a few more tweets and prepared for work. I sent a tweet to Grinning Cat thanking him for follow recommendations. I am not really that interested in them, but i saw this as an opportunity to rebuild some bridges with him. We have not had the same interaction since our little misunderstanding earlier in the week. The response from him seemed to be positive.

It is slow work, a bit like pulling teeth, but i managed to gain another 3 followers today and my
total now stands at 57. It seems a long way to 100 but i will get there.

Hectic Day

Dear Goddess,

Today has been a hectic day as i had to deal with some personal issues which i will not bother You with.

i made progress on my tasks for You, getting the scheduled tweets for Monday organized. Thank You for sending me more tweets and i will continue to compose more until we have a total of 70 prepared. i will also work on scheduling the tweets for the rest of the week.

i'm off to bed now, tired and brain fried..

Your humble servant,

Guilty

Thursday 12th September 2013. After a busy night at work, arrived home at 7am feeling shattered. Did a little bit of tweeting. Had a few hours sleep then went to collect my son to take him to nursery. In the evening AG outlines what Her plans are on twitter and what She expects me to do. It should keep me busy, but is not something that i can't handle. Had to drop my son back to my friend's place on my way to work. As usual he cried when i was leaving and as usual i felt guilty. It is not easy playing the role of two parents but it s a challenge i must face. At the end of the day my number of twitter followers has increased to 54.

Disheartened and Despondent

Monday 9th September 2013 ------ Early in the morning i became aware that i had somehow upset The Grinning Cat, one of the most popular subs, last night. The issue mainly relates to a misunderstanding, but i am advised by ALMIGHTY GODDESS that i am at fault and must apologise. I am a little despondent because i have made AG mad at me again, and i actually like Grinning Cat and would never knowingly insult him. I have already accepted that AG is now in control of my life and i will never challenge Her authority
again. I don't have any problem about apologising and Grinning Cat is happy to close the matter. I spent most of the day working on the task AG has given me, to promote Her clips. In the evening i felt a little unwell. I have to admit i am also feeling a little disheartened and despondent. I am so desperate to try and please AG, but almost every thing i do seems to make Her mad at me. It is a little soul destroying. Earlier, during the afternoon i made a visit to FBA and lodged £ 105. I also made a start on my first wish list and purchased some garden furniture. I ordered some Fox sport boxer shorts and socks that AG has instructed
me to wear from now on.

Dear Goddess,

Today has been another day of intense toiling for Your pleasure. i have been hard at work ever since returning from my vacation, trying to keep up with Your expectations. Somehow i expect that every time i get close to catching up You will toss another huge task my way. All i can do is keep my nose to the grindstone and hope that You will be satisfied with my efforts.

It is quite late now so i am off to bed. i am looking forward to getting back to work for You tomorrow morning.

Your humble servant,

400th Tweet

Wednesday 11th September 2013

I had a busy time at work during the night, with a lot of contractors, but i did manage to write
introductions for 4 of FOXXY's clips. I arrived home just after 7am feeling shattered. I
didn't manage to sleep very well. AG is now deeply embedded in my thought process. Got
up to find that my Fox boxer shorts have been delivered.

In the afternoon i went through the list of people i follow on twitter and i unfollowed a lot
who i feel serve no purpose. Although it was only my 9th day of twittering i passed the 400
mark. I used my 400th tweet to say how much i idolize ALMIGHTY GODDESS. In the early
evening i managed to write 2 more introductions. I said in yesterdays log that i hoped to reach
50 followers by the end of this week. However, as of tonight i have already reached 52. I think i
am slowly making a little progress. I still badly need to improve my computer skills. ALMIGHTY
GODDESS is not easy to please, but at least now i am not making Her unhappy and She is not
mad at me ALL the time.

Back in Your Service

Dear Goddess,

It was nice to have a relaxing vacation, but i am thrilled to be back in Your service, at Your beck & call. i have been busy today sorting thru all Your messages and working to organize everything You lined up for me. i expect to be quite busy for some time to come.

i did get out for a short time today and made sure to compliment and please the Superior Black Women i was fortunate enough to meet. i spend more and more of every day thinking about You and adjusting my life to Your standards.

i should also mention that i had to briefly log in to Your email account to authorize my access to HootSuite again as i was locked out once more. i am getting ready to schedule the tweets for Your MissFoxx_FD account so You can concentrate on Your new Losers account.

Your humble servant,

Early Morning Positivity

Tuesday 10th September 2013

In the morning i checked my time line on Twitter and seen some tweets from Hex Kitten about someone trying to sabotage her new clip store. I do like Hex and i sent her a message of support. She sent back a nice reply which was very complimentary towards
ALMIGHTY GODDESS. Shortly afterwards a tweet i had posted , about my service for AG, got favorited by Princess Brandes. Good early morning positivity'

In the early afternoon i went to register my son at a nearby nursery. I wrote introductory wording for 2 of AG's clips which i forwarded to Her. I watched Her RT clip with rosco-man and the thing which struck me most about it was his Northern Ireland accent.
As i am starting night shift i went for an afternoon nap.

When i awoke i found an email from MISS FOXX stating that She was going to use the introductions i had written, albeit with some minor changes. AG had 2 minor accidents during the day, cutting Her finger and burning Her hand, and so in order to share Her pain Her boys punched themselves in the balls.

I did a bit more retweeting before going to work. Trying to boost my number of followers is proving hard work. At the end of the day i stand at 43. Hopefully by the end of this week i can at least reach 50.

Words Will Not Suffice

Sunday 8th September 2013

Interesting day during which i endured mixed emotions. I received an email from ALMIGHTY GODDESS in which She stated that after reading the diary entries of this new log, She may be prepared to allow me to make a fresh start. I dropped my son off to my friend's place. Although he is happy there, Sean Stefan really does idolize his dad. He bolts the front door , leads me to an armchair and says " sit ". I am really touched by my son's love for me. He cries when i leave, and i feel so guilty.

I receive another email from AG, stating that i am now Her property, and outlining a way of life i must now follow. I adore my Goddess and am so happy to follow whatever path She chooses for me. I have a little twitter exchange with Hex Kitten. She is my favorite American based domme. She has just started a new clip store which appears to be struggling. She strikes me as someone who is not primarily money motivated, and i try to give her as much encouragement as i can.

In the morning i will begin my work for AG. I am confident i will be able to help Her, but i don't want to get over confident. I adore AG , but am conscious that i have to prove my adoration by actions. Words will, quite simply, not suffice.

So Much Upset

Saturday 7th September 2013.

Last night i received an email from ALMIGHTY GODDESS. By the time i had finished reading it i had begun to cry. The narrative made it quite clear the degree to which i had brought so much upset and unhappiness to someone i care so deeply about. I felt a mixture of embarrassment and shame. For the first time in my entire life i felt a dent in the one thing i cannot survive without. My self respect.

My little son Sean is very perceptive. He does not reach his 3rd birthday until 9 days after ALMIGHTY GODDESS's big day, but his intelligent understanding is already quite apparent. He looked at me with open
arms and uttered a single word " hug". I was so grateful for his presence. The thought of what i have done and the distress i have caused has made me realize the time has now come for the character derekk to die.
The real derekk, one of the few people i have ever trusted in my life, passed away 3 years ago. He will be a prominent character in a book i hope to write in the not too distant future. I also believe it is the right time to
end " diary of a sub" and commence Poodles log, which i hope will be filled with successful stories of my
efforts to ensure the happiness of my GODDESS.

I know only too well that MISS FOXX wants to see actions to prove my devotion. I have been trying hard
to do as much retweeting and get as many followers as possible. I am not finding it easy due to my lack of
computer knowledge in general, and twitter in particular. As of today i have made about 250 tweets and have reached 30 followers. I have asked ALMIGHTY GODDESS to prepare a wishlist for me ( my 1st one). She has indicated that She may do when She has time to spare.

For the record, my name is Patrick and if ALMIGHTY GODDESS has any interest in knowing anything
else about me , i will tell Her . There is nothing i can do to turn back the clock. If i could, i would. In the
aftermath of what has gone before, i do not know if it will ever be possible for me to win the trust of MISS
FOXX. I do know that i have to try.

Grueling Work

Dear Goddess,

i spent a good portion of today working hard at getting all the updates in place for Your spreadsheet. It has been grueling work, but i am hopeful that all my effort has been useful to You and saved You some valuable time. i am grateful that You have allowed me to be of service.

i did get out of the house briefly and was fortunate enough to come across a superior black woman who i complimented, gaining a nice smile in response.

i am also still quite excited about being accepted as Your property. Thank You again!

Your humble servant,
Miss Foxx's Bitch

Thank You

Dear Goddess,

Thank You again for accepting me as Your Property, i am so excited!

i just send You an email with the status of my spreadsheet updates. i am glad to be back to work for You.

i am also extremely tired after my journey back from my vacation trip today, so i am off to bed now.

Your humble servant,
Miss Foxx's Bitch

Anniversary

Tuesday 3rd September 2013

Today was a special day. The first anniversary of ALMIGHTY GODDESS's venture into the world
of financial domination. I was up at 5 and in work by 06.15.. Today i made a conscious effort to do as much as possible. I did quite a bit of retweeting. I know that is important, but today i thought that,
although i am proud to be called Foxxys poodle, and all that entails, it is important for me, and more
so for my Goddess, that i begin to create a personality to go with the name. I believe that i will be of
more interest to subs, if i have a character of my own rather than just being known as a FOXXY
owned boy.


So, during the course of the day , i started a few interactions on a variety of topics. Rome wasn't built
in a day, but i think i have made a little progress. In the evening i was very pleased, when AG
announced that She had decided to collar g.walton and he would now become Miss Foxx's Bitch.
He has worked very hard for AG and in truth probably deserved the honor before me.

I am conscious that i still sometimes annoy my Goddess, and have also recently been late with my
tributes. AG reminded me of that in a tweet today. She did so without naming me, but i openly put
my hands up and publicly admitted that i was at fault. Tomorrow i will put the matter right. Even if i
sometimes piss FOXXY off, i know that from day one i have been fiercely loyal. I feel terribly
protective towards Her, and have never had nor will ever have any interest in following anyone else.

Thankless Task

Monday 2nd September 2013.

I don't really have a great recollection of my day's activities. I arrived in work at 6.20am. I had sent a £20 GC to ALMIGHTY GODDESS before i left for work. We exchanged some tweets during the day which primarily related to my trying to promote AG on Twitter. Some of the comments AG passed to me, made it clear that She didn't realize how much of a beginner i am on computers.

During the early evening, i exchanged some jovial tweets with the Grinning Cat, which i quite
enjoyed. AG mentioned She is going to Club Black Whip on 20th September. When i told Her that
that was my birthday, She was quick to put me down. OUCH. Anyway, at the end of the day, i am
beginning to understand Twitter a bit better, although my number of followers is only up to 12. I am
starting to realize that being a sub is not easy. Just like being a union rep, no matter how good you are, it is a thankless task.

i am A Loser

Sunday 1st September 2013.

Passing through Camden , on my way to work, at about 6am i noticed a long queue of people who had been sleeping outside the Roundhouse for the Lady Gaga concert tonight. I received an early morning email from ALMIGHTY GODDESS reminding me that my service is still unsatisfactory and must improve.

I stayed back in work to take some computer coaching. My work colleague couldn't believe how much of a novice i was. I was reminded of a neighbour i bumped into in a pub a couple of years ago. He told me that as part of a reward for completing 25 years service with John Lewis. He said he wouldn't go as he wouldn't be able to survive. I didn't understand what he meant, until he informed me that he had never learned to read or write. I was shocked. I had known him for years, admittedly not very well , and never would have dreamed that about him.

I sent a couple of tweets to AG in the evening. She seems to be very excited about going to whip club in a few weeks time. Russell James is even more excited because he will also be going, to serve AG and Her Slave Boy. I am still trying to educate myself about Twitter, but at least i now have 8 followers, whereas this morning i only had AG.

I intend to make a big effort this week, starting with a small gift card in the morning, but most importantly bringing my pledge up to date on Wednesday. That is vitally important to me as i am a MAN of my word. I intend to make it harder and harder for AG to keep putting me down, even though i know She enjoys doing that. After the next two weeks, if i am still AG's worst performing boy, i will just give up and admit i am a loser.
Your devoted servant, Foxxys poodle