So Much Upset

Saturday 7th September 2013.

Last night i received an email from ALMIGHTY GODDESS. By the time i had finished reading it i had begun to cry. The narrative made it quite clear the degree to which i had brought so much upset and unhappiness to someone i care so deeply about. I felt a mixture of embarrassment and shame. For the first time in my entire life i felt a dent in the one thing i cannot survive without. My self respect.

My little son Sean is very perceptive. He does not reach his 3rd birthday until 9 days after ALMIGHTY GODDESS's big day, but his intelligent understanding is already quite apparent. He looked at me with open
arms and uttered a single word " hug". I was so grateful for his presence. The thought of what i have done and the distress i have caused has made me realize the time has now come for the character derekk to die.
The real derekk, one of the few people i have ever trusted in my life, passed away 3 years ago. He will be a prominent character in a book i hope to write in the not too distant future. I also believe it is the right time to
end " diary of a sub" and commence Poodles log, which i hope will be filled with successful stories of my
efforts to ensure the happiness of my GODDESS.

I know only too well that MISS FOXX wants to see actions to prove my devotion. I have been trying hard
to do as much retweeting and get as many followers as possible. I am not finding it easy due to my lack of
computer knowledge in general, and twitter in particular. As of today i have made about 250 tweets and have reached 30 followers. I have asked ALMIGHTY GODDESS to prepare a wishlist for me ( my 1st one). She has indicated that She may do when She has time to spare.

For the record, my name is Patrick and if ALMIGHTY GODDESS has any interest in knowing anything
else about me , i will tell Her . There is nothing i can do to turn back the clock. If i could, i would. In the
aftermath of what has gone before, i do not know if it will ever be possible for me to win the trust of MISS
FOXX. I do know that i have to try.