Too Many Demons In my Head

Sunday 23rd June 2013 --Got home from work about 7.30am. Although tired i didn't find it easy to sleep, too many demons in my head. Exchanged a couple of tweets with AG and even managed to entice a chuckle from Her with a comment about my dad being unfamiliar with GOSPEL of MISS FOXX. So now i know that even Goddesses laugh occasionally. I am pleased to hear that FOXXY is spending the day with Her parents. Family is very important. I am somewhat aloof from my family having left home at 17 to take a job in the civil service. I am ,however the strong one in my family and feel hugely protective towards them, especially since the death of my mother. Ironically , i didn't really get on with my mum. We were too alike, both of us being extremely stubborn and not prepared to back down if we felt we were in the right. Down through the years my stubbornness has gotten me into plenty of hot water, but i don't regret it as it has helped me to survive some things in life that most people couldn't imagine. In just a few days time i will have been a FOXXY follower for one whole month. It has been a mostly enjoyable experience and one that i will never forget. I say mostly enjoyable because during that time i have received 2 warnings from AG. I don't really believe they are down to my stubbornness. I believe they relate to my openness and honesty with AG and Her interpretation of some of my comments. The term " too comfortable" has been used. That is a fair comment. I cannot deny, i have always felt comfortable with FOXXY. I would argue, oops wrong word, one doesn't argue with a Goddess, i am of the opinion ( which AG couldn't care less about ) that my feeling of comfort comes from dealing with someone who is genuinely what they claim to be, not someone hiding behind a phony facade. I have years of experience in dealing with the latter, albeit not in this particular field. The things that endear AG to me are not just Her undoubted beauty and charisma, but also Her business acumen and astuteness in outing time wasters and con artists. A time may come when i feel it is no longer possible to remain in the role of devoted sub. If that day does come , i will be open and truthful and not waste FOXXY's time with any bullshit. No matter what the future holds, and i continue to battle internal demons following a role which doesn't come easy or natural to me, i shall always remember this past month or so and shall retain a feeling of loyalty to FOXXY for the rest of my days. I genuinely have come to cherish Her.