"i've Got FOXXY Under my Skin"

Thursday 27th June 2013 --The early morning tweets on FOXXY's blog are rather sombre. Spirits are dampened by news of the grave state of health of Nelson Mandela ( MADIBA). FOXXY favors one of my tweets about the great statesman, but that hardly feels relevant in the context of his illness. There seems to be a lot of rancour and bitchiness about fake dommes and pictures and videos being stolen. Later in the day i remember that its one month today since i became a FOXXY follower. I honestly did not expect to last this long. I have of course had two warnings. That is entirely the prerogative of ALMIGHTY GODDESS and i fully accept Her decisions. MISS FOXX is really only interested in genuine subs and i have never pretended to be one. However, there is definitely nothing fake about me. I have asked to be a FOXXY follower and made a pledge to which i have adhered. I have promised openness , honesty and loyalty and i would claim that i have delivered on those. Although i have always played my cards close to my chest, i believe myself to be incapable of lying to FOXXY or deceiving Her in any way. I must ask myself the question, if i am not a genuine sub, why have i asked to follow and pledged my hard earned money to ALMIGHTY GODDESS.? I am not entirely sure that i know the answer. FinDom is something i had previously been unfamiliar with, despite having vast experience of the wider sex related industry. Having studied MISS FOXX very closely, i have become genuinely very fond of Her. I admire Her intelligence and Her courage, Her fearlessness. I also appreciate Her understanding of the wider aspects of Her business. She knows what She wants and how to get it, but She also knows that there is a line which shouldn't be crossed, and the importance of maintaining standards. I am a person who has made a lot of enemies in my life, but none that i have ever been afraid of. I am unable to help myself in feeling genuinely protective towards ALMIGHTY GODDESS. I am quite happy to continue to follow FOXXY on Her terms. I may not resort to calling myself a " pathetic loser", "small dick wimp" or" stupid fucking cunt", but that doesn't matter, MISS FOXX will call me those things anyway. In any case i KNOW that i am not any of those things. I responded to a tweet earlier in the day by saying " there is no life without self respect". I absolutely believe that. I was pleased to hear FOXXY talk about her " hornyness " and Her chemistry with Her Hercules. Although i do love Her, i was in no way jealous and was really happy for Her. I can honestly and wholeheartedly say that FOXXY's pleasure does give me pleasure. I have never had any difficulty in obtaining sex, and with some stunning ladies, even as i have gotten older. I honestly believe it to be an overrated pastime. Love, on the other hand , is something entirely different. Every night when i write this entry, i try to balance my honesty and openness, with saying something which might upset MISS FOXX. On two occasions i have gotten it wrong and ended up with warnings. One of them was not unexpected, but i have to say that the second one came as a surprise. I have to ask myself the question, could i go on living if i got banished by Miss foxx? The answer of course is yes. I would have to for the sake of my son. However, i know from the bottom of my heart ( i do actually have one unlike FOXXY ) that i would genuinely be hurt and i would really really miss Her. She kinda sneaked up on me, but She has become an important part of my life. As Frank Sinatra would sing " i've got FOXXY under my skin".